Jun 15, 2008 05:51
Yeah... so my cousin Shasta calls me up to tell me about her man problems. I bike over right away in order to cheer her up, even though it's like 3 in the morning. It's no biggie, I'm usually up till six anyways. So I spend most of my time making jokes and being sarcastic to Noel. Shasta starts to cheer up. Then Noel gets upset because she thinks that we are calling her stupid. So I start to talk philosophy with her. She begins to see that some knowledge can be obtained without textbooks. Then we started talking religion, and I told her about my views. Then Penny, much to my enjoyment, tells me that she is very against the Evangelical view of you're not a real Christian if you don't try and convert others. Which is pretty cool. The others agreed and when we left, Shasta was better, but she'll need to actually deal with the problem. I think the next time I talk to her, I'll tell her my broken hearted experience. Maybe it'll make it easier to relate to me.
You know, I've always thought of my sarcasm and joking nature to be a bad thing. It makes it to where some people never take me seriously when I want to be serious, and others to take me seriously when I'm not. But this time, it actually cheered somebody up. It helped them. I have a strong sense of accomplishment now. But I've decided that, like Uncle Ben said, "with great power comes great responsibility".
This brings to my next step in my program: After talking about the ethics of moderation with my cousins, I realized that I did not practice this with my joking nature. I just don't. So I'm not going to joke less, necessarily, but I'm going to stop ripping on so many things. Not to prove that I'm better than anyone, but to prove that I can be better than myself (ripped that one off the Thunderbolts). I'm going to ask my close friends if there is something that they are bothered with me joking about so much. Republicans, Evangelism, Religion, World of Warcraft, NASCAR, anything that I joke about that bothers you, tell me. I'll do my best to stop.
You know, for someone that jokes a lot, I take way too much too seriously. Every time a friend snaps at me, or sounds exasperated at me, I take it too personally. This new program will try to curb this trend. I don't want to change, but I'd like to stop pissing people off. I know firsthand that laughing has its cures, but too much of hurts. I'm only realizing that now. My only fear is that someone will misconstrue this as me becoming a person with no sense of humor. I just want to stop making my friends mad.