It's been a while
Yeah so... this is the first post I've made in 46 weeks. My poor account feels neglected. I wish I could make some joke here but the truth is that I don't feel very court jesterish right now. Why, you ask? Well let's just say that I've managed to piss off my best friend. I know that if I had a super power it would be to say the wrong thing at the wrong time. It wasn't just that I made her angry, I think I hurt her feelings. But I can't tell because we didn't talk about. All I know is that when she left, she wouldn't even look at me.
That's when I got to thinking. How many times have I truly pissed Cindy off? A few, although, they were always cleared up within at least an hour. But I can't think of one time that Cindy has made me truly angry. Bottom line, I'm just a jackass. It sucks being away from my friends days at a time, and then all we do when we get together is play video games. Dakota and I play Halo, or Dakota and Cindy play WoW. Not there's anything wrong with either, but I remember the days where we used to hang out in Allen. We didn't need anything to do. We just entertained each other. And we were always trying to come up with something new instead of rehashing everything over and over again. I don't feel creative. Maybe it's part of growing up. Maybe it's because we don't have awesome cable shows. I don't know. I at least get to hang out with Liz everyday, although I'm kind of getting burnt out on that one. Honestly, I just wish Travis would come over more often. But in hindsight, I'm better off than Cindy, who is stuck in Allen with no one else.
Another thing that bothers me is that when the Panhandle does get together, when we talk it often turns into an argument. I claim most of the responsibility for this. I'm the most political, I'm the one who's pro choice, and I'm the one who just can't shut up if one his beliefs is challenged. I just hope it isn't a sign of us growing apart. I know that the day will come that I leave this state and say goodbye, but until then, and after then, I'd like to maintain their friendship.
Honestly at this point, I don't think I could truly offend Dakota. Even when I renounced my faith, he stood by me. If he doesn't throw that in my face every time we hang out, then I don't think that anything I do could truly bother him. He just knows that I don't take a whole lot seriously. However, I know that somehow I've hurt Cindy.
Will we work through this... probably. I'm probably over apologizing like I'm prone to do. But I do hope that she doesn't stay sore at me for too long.
That's when I got to thinking. How many times have I truly pissed Cindy off? A few, although, they were always cleared up within at least an hour. But I can't think of one time that Cindy has made me truly angry. Bottom line, I'm just a jackass. It sucks being away from my friends days at a time, and then all we do when we get together is play video games. Dakota and I play Halo, or Dakota and Cindy play WoW. Not there's anything wrong with either, but I remember the days where we used to hang out in Allen. We didn't need anything to do. We just entertained each other. And we were always trying to come up with something new instead of rehashing everything over and over again. I don't feel creative. Maybe it's part of growing up. Maybe it's because we don't have awesome cable shows. I don't know. I at least get to hang out with Liz everyday, although I'm kind of getting burnt out on that one. Honestly, I just wish Travis would come over more often. But in hindsight, I'm better off than Cindy, who is stuck in Allen with no one else.
Another thing that bothers me is that when the Panhandle does get together, when we talk it often turns into an argument. I claim most of the responsibility for this. I'm the most political, I'm the one who's pro choice, and I'm the one who just can't shut up if one his beliefs is challenged. I just hope it isn't a sign of us growing apart. I know that the day will come that I leave this state and say goodbye, but until then, and after then, I'd like to maintain their friendship.
Honestly at this point, I don't think I could truly offend Dakota. Even when I renounced my faith, he stood by me. If he doesn't throw that in my face every time we hang out, then I don't think that anything I do could truly bother him. He just knows that I don't take a whole lot seriously. However, I know that somehow I've hurt Cindy.
Will we work through this... probably. I'm probably over apologizing like I'm prone to do. But I do hope that she doesn't stay sore at me for too long.