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The song on the new Kanye record that the guy from Coldplay sings the chorus to is a fucking hit. It's called Homecoming, and it's better than both of the singles by a mile (and I like Stronger a lot).
I used to not understand how anybody could just wallow in their unhappiness.
they had nothing they were passionate about in their lives sustaining them, and I always did, whether it was actively playing music or even just actively being in love.
things are certainly way more difficult now.
I don't talk to anyone lately. I mean I talk to people, sure, but I don't talk to anyone anymore. but I still have so much to say, haha.
like how today, on the heels of realizing that I really really like three songs on Paul Simon's Graceland album but still have never heard the entire thing, Kodachrome came on the radio and hit me like a fucking brick. and I'd been ignoring all that Kodachrome had to offer for years.
I work every night. I go to school full time. and I don't fuck up. I honestly don't fuck up and I don't know how. I'm busy too! I'm always busy! but if I want to see or talk to someone, or someone wants to see or talk to me, I'll make the time.
I'm always around people that are in ideal, awesome relationships. Most of the time I love that. I can't even count the times I sat in the backseat of a car just hanging out with my friends and whoever they were with at the time at all different points in their relationships just watching how happy they were making each other and loving being around that. Whether they were with someone relatively new or they'd been together for years already and I'd already spent plenty of time hanging out with them in the backseat. I know that sounds a little crazy, but I also know I'm not the only one who's thought of it like that, I can't be.
either way. sometimes it fucking sucks.
and I'm painting a picture here like I'm terribly depressed. I'm not. I do fun things with fun people and it still feels good to actively be responsible and have some kind of order in my life. but then I come home and think too much when there's no diversions and then I'm being a negative nancy. That shouldn't be the case, and I need to make changes.
I watched American Graffiti tonight. I was gonna watch Manhattan after that, but Blockbuster fucked up and sent me Manhattan Murder Mystery instead (but the envelope said it was Manhattan, which I guess means someone put the wrong disc in). They're both Woody Allen movies, so that's a pretty understandable mistake I suppose, but I lose.
regardless, thank god for the bouncing souls. tonight I listened to the bouncing souls until I felt better.
I used to not understand how anybody could just wallow in their unhappiness.
they had nothing they were passionate about in their lives sustaining them, and I always did, whether it was actively playing music or even just actively being in love.
things are certainly way more difficult now.
I don't talk to anyone lately. I mean I talk to people, sure, but I don't talk to anyone anymore. but I still have so much to say, haha.
like how today, on the heels of realizing that I really really like three songs on Paul Simon's Graceland album but still have never heard the entire thing, Kodachrome came on the radio and hit me like a fucking brick. and I'd been ignoring all that Kodachrome had to offer for years.
I work every night. I go to school full time. and I don't fuck up. I honestly don't fuck up and I don't know how. I'm busy too! I'm always busy! but if I want to see or talk to someone, or someone wants to see or talk to me, I'll make the time.
I'm always around people that are in ideal, awesome relationships. Most of the time I love that. I can't even count the times I sat in the backseat of a car just hanging out with my friends and whoever they were with at the time at all different points in their relationships just watching how happy they were making each other and loving being around that. Whether they were with someone relatively new or they'd been together for years already and I'd already spent plenty of time hanging out with them in the backseat. I know that sounds a little crazy, but I also know I'm not the only one who's thought of it like that, I can't be.
either way. sometimes it fucking sucks.
and I'm painting a picture here like I'm terribly depressed. I'm not. I do fun things with fun people and it still feels good to actively be responsible and have some kind of order in my life. but then I come home and think too much when there's no diversions and then I'm being a negative nancy. That shouldn't be the case, and I need to make changes.
I watched American Graffiti tonight. I was gonna watch Manhattan after that, but Blockbuster fucked up and sent me Manhattan Murder Mystery instead (but the envelope said it was Manhattan, which I guess means someone put the wrong disc in). They're both Woody Allen movies, so that's a pretty understandable mistake I suppose, but I lose.
regardless, thank god for the bouncing souls. tonight I listened to the bouncing souls until I felt better.