Blimey
Doesn't feel like its been a month and a half already.
Summaries then...
Elbow:
Waiting on a letter from the hospital confirming the date I should be going in for surgery to remove the wires and pins.
Should be happening sometime in December, but I don't know anything more than that.
Overall, its not too bad these days and I can actually forget that there is that metal under the skin from time to time.
It doesn't interfere with my sleeping any more, thankfully.
Recreationally:
So what have I actually been doing then... Well nothing exciting...
I finished reading Mass Effect: Retribution, which I enjoyed a great deal.
Its an interesting conundrum when it comes to Mass Effect having an extended universe.
Such a big part of the games is making decisions that affect the story and general state of the universe when you're playing it. You get stuck in a kind of loop about what is canon, so bringing novels and such into it, especially when they start to bring in key characters like Captain Anderson and the Illusive Man.
I mean, in my main save game, Captain Anderson is the Councilor and the Council survived.
In the novel, and thus in the 'official' canon, it was Udina who was Councilor with Anderson being his advisor.
Makes Halo canon seem simple to grasp. =p
On the flip side, it makes it easier to say 'bugger it' and just really run away with your imagination with the ME universe and developer a robust fanon.
Also of course finished the Shadow Brokers Lair DLC, also good fun and nicely passed the time to Halo Reach.
Speaking of which, I've been playing Halo Reach through most of mid/late September.
From early October I've mostly been playing Reach still and a bit of F1 2010 for variety.
Just today I hit Lt. Colonel Grade 3 which is the current highest rank.
Few random facts, the Sabre is my number 1 weapon in campaign, 38,438 Covenant have been killed (much sad face), I've completed 66 daily challenges, 4 weekly challenges and my current K/D ratio in matchmaking is 1.39
I enjoyed the game really, and the campaign. Its not perfect by any means, but I think some of the fans have been too harsh on it, especially when it comes to the whole canon stuff.
And the Sangheili, well... I prefer them to their design in Halo 3, the bulkiness has gone a bit and as can be seen in this screenshot, the arse is back. =P
Be happy Tara.
Curious thing, they seem to be barefoot?
Thinking about that, the Sangheili were the only species in the Covenant that actually wore any kind of boots.
Change maybe?
The other day I was also playing co-op with Louis Wu himself of Halo.Bungie.org in order to help him get the 'Wake up Buttercup' achievement using the Sabre. We succeeded first time, and we didn't have to dive under the Corvette to take out all the space banshees before they launched.
I was nervous as hell playing with someone like that, but I managed and it was a real honour.
To mark the occasion, I threw this together.
As a further funny little thing, the next day I played campaign on the same level on my own. By coincidence, his AI counterpart in the game wanted his turn. Talk about deja vu. He actually survived the whole ordeal too.
It tickled me, so I took a couple of screenshots of that and emailed them off to the man himself.
He got a chuckle out of it too, and now the screenshot of his AI counterparts face has been added to the roster of the 'HBO corner image' gallery.
He got a chuckle out of it too, and now the screenshot of his AI counterparts face has been added to the roster of the 'HBO corner image' gallery.
Soooo, I guess that's about it. Currently reading the 3rd Gears of War novel, Anvil Gate. Its also pretty good.
Emotionally:
Hmm... not comfy with posting this, but oh well... should try to be open I guess...
So I went through some real hell emotionally in late March. That long ago. Not going to go into details or anything but I was played for a total fool. Was told many things and was foolish enough to believe them until it all got taken away from me in the blink of an eye.
Maybe that's karma and my own naivety... Maybe I actually deserved it, I don't really know...
Regardless, what's done is done and I think I'm over the worst of it.
Could be time healing wounds, could also be the anti-depressants. Or a combination of the two.
Yeah, I'll say it. I'm on a Citalopram. Mainly to deal with anxiety, but I hit some pretty deep depression in March.
Trying to get my head sorted out on the anxiety front, its moved up to the point where I've been seen an actual psychiatrist who put me on the meds and a waiting list for a few types of therapy.
I really do hate it all. On top of that, it doesn't feel like I really have any reason to try and get better either.
I miss having a goal to strive for, someone to see.
At least I don't spend all day just lying in bed in a funk though, not eating or doing anything at all. It really was that bad for a while.
I am anxious though. First about the surgery, which is natural enough, but I also have a medical assessment on Nov 10th. Basically asked a bunch of questions and someone will decide that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me, and I'll be forced to appeal which will go to a tribunal... bleh...
I've been trying to make a few friends here and there which I'm not really very good at... hopefully made at least one though.
Feels like I've been losing them left, right and centre.
Did have a couple of people to depend on when I was at my worst.
I don't mean to whine or anything, I know its pathetic and people are way worse off, just want to make that clear.
Summaries then...
Elbow:
Waiting on a letter from the hospital confirming the date I should be going in for surgery to remove the wires and pins.
Should be happening sometime in December, but I don't know anything more than that.
Overall, its not too bad these days and I can actually forget that there is that metal under the skin from time to time.
It doesn't interfere with my sleeping any more, thankfully.
Recreationally:
So what have I actually been doing then... Well nothing exciting...
I finished reading Mass Effect: Retribution, which I enjoyed a great deal.
Its an interesting conundrum when it comes to Mass Effect having an extended universe.
Such a big part of the games is making decisions that affect the story and general state of the universe when you're playing it. You get stuck in a kind of loop about what is canon, so bringing novels and such into it, especially when they start to bring in key characters like Captain Anderson and the Illusive Man.
I mean, in my main save game, Captain Anderson is the Councilor and the Council survived.
In the novel, and thus in the 'official' canon, it was Udina who was Councilor with Anderson being his advisor.
Makes Halo canon seem simple to grasp. =p
On the flip side, it makes it easier to say 'bugger it' and just really run away with your imagination with the ME universe and developer a robust fanon.
Also of course finished the Shadow Brokers Lair DLC, also good fun and nicely passed the time to Halo Reach.
Speaking of which, I've been playing Halo Reach through most of mid/late September.
From early October I've mostly been playing Reach still and a bit of F1 2010 for variety.
Just today I hit Lt. Colonel Grade 3 which is the current highest rank.
Few random facts, the Sabre is my number 1 weapon in campaign, 38,438 Covenant have been killed (much sad face), I've completed 66 daily challenges, 4 weekly challenges and my current K/D ratio in matchmaking is 1.39
I enjoyed the game really, and the campaign. Its not perfect by any means, but I think some of the fans have been too harsh on it, especially when it comes to the whole canon stuff.
And the Sangheili, well... I prefer them to their design in Halo 3, the bulkiness has gone a bit and as can be seen in this screenshot, the arse is back. =P
Be happy Tara.
Curious thing, they seem to be barefoot?
Thinking about that, the Sangheili were the only species in the Covenant that actually wore any kind of boots.
Change maybe?
The other day I was also playing co-op with Louis Wu himself of Halo.Bungie.org in order to help him get the 'Wake up Buttercup' achievement using the Sabre. We succeeded first time, and we didn't have to dive under the Corvette to take out all the space banshees before they launched.
I was nervous as hell playing with someone like that, but I managed and it was a real honour.
To mark the occasion, I threw this together.
As a further funny little thing, the next day I played campaign on the same level on my own. By coincidence, his AI counterpart in the game wanted his turn. Talk about deja vu. He actually survived the whole ordeal too.
It tickled me, so I took a couple of screenshots of that and emailed them off to the man himself.
He got a chuckle out of it too, and now the screenshot of his AI counterparts face has been added to the roster of the 'HBO corner image' gallery.
He got a chuckle out of it too, and now the screenshot of his AI counterparts face has been added to the roster of the 'HBO corner image' gallery.
Soooo, I guess that's about it. Currently reading the 3rd Gears of War novel, Anvil Gate. Its also pretty good.
Emotionally:
Hmm... not comfy with posting this, but oh well... should try to be open I guess...
So I went through some real hell emotionally in late March. That long ago. Not going to go into details or anything but I was played for a total fool. Was told many things and was foolish enough to believe them until it all got taken away from me in the blink of an eye.
Maybe that's karma and my own naivety... Maybe I actually deserved it, I don't really know...
Regardless, what's done is done and I think I'm over the worst of it.
Could be time healing wounds, could also be the anti-depressants. Or a combination of the two.
Yeah, I'll say it. I'm on a Citalopram. Mainly to deal with anxiety, but I hit some pretty deep depression in March.
Trying to get my head sorted out on the anxiety front, its moved up to the point where I've been seen an actual psychiatrist who put me on the meds and a waiting list for a few types of therapy.
I really do hate it all. On top of that, it doesn't feel like I really have any reason to try and get better either.
I miss having a goal to strive for, someone to see.
At least I don't spend all day just lying in bed in a funk though, not eating or doing anything at all. It really was that bad for a while.
I am anxious though. First about the surgery, which is natural enough, but I also have a medical assessment on Nov 10th. Basically asked a bunch of questions and someone will decide that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me, and I'll be forced to appeal which will go to a tribunal... bleh...
I've been trying to make a few friends here and there which I'm not really very good at... hopefully made at least one though.
Feels like I've been losing them left, right and centre.
Did have a couple of people to depend on when I was at my worst.
I don't mean to whine or anything, I know its pathetic and people are way worse off, just want to make that clear.