Dating Update
Lately it seems I've been to busy doing stuff and microblogging on facebook and twitter to have time to actually sit down and put together a full blog post on here. And after reading back through the past week (or so) I realize that I've actually not missed much I didn't hear about through other channels. No, I'll still post here... but it's becoming clear that there's a fair amount of duplication going on. That and I've started just skipping meme and tweet posts.
I was catching up with mom last night and after recapping the time I've spent with Y in the past few weeks I realized that I've chosen to devote a good amount of time to him without actually realizing it. Yeah, I really like him that much. :-)
After our initial lunch date/protest march, we met again this past Sunday and Tuesday... each until about 2am... and I honestly didn't really want to part even then. It just became a practical matter of our both having to work the next day.
Sunday was very memorable for me for several reasons
Tuesday was a complete surprise. I had expected to go to the Rope Peer Bondage Workshop but the person I was hoping to demo for couldn't make it. Meantime, I got a call from S that L wanted to do dinner in Dublin that night. Hmm... Y would be working from home, so I noted that I would check with him about coming by to hang out later. Instead, S suggested inviting him to dinner, which I did and he accepted. I hadn't planned on doing friend introductions this soon, but I had no particular worries. They got along pretty well. L can be a bit of a challenge with new folks, but they bantered well I thought. :-) After, Y and I went back to his place (which is nearby to where we had dinner), watched a movie he had received from NetFlix, and then romped about for a while.
So here I am mere hours from the start of a weekend of solid time with him and I'm really excited. I've really enjoyed spending time with Y and I feel myself letting him see parts of me I don't normally show... and wanting to see those parts of him, too. I don't want to overthink this, and want to take things as they come. But I also want to recognize that I'm happy and at a place that's pretty rare for me to get to in relationships so far. I shared with Y that I think it's a good thing we didn't get together until after I'd been exploring myself through BDSM for a while... because it has helped me learn to embrace my vulnerability, and I think that's what I'm seeing express itself in how Y and I have been interacting so far.
OK. That's all for now. I'm running back through all the emotions and stuff from everything that's happened so far, and I'd rather be focused on now. Just wanted to catch up a little and promise to do this closer to actual events going forward. Maybe I'll have to start posting from my phone more now. :-)
I was catching up with mom last night and after recapping the time I've spent with Y in the past few weeks I realized that I've chosen to devote a good amount of time to him without actually realizing it. Yeah, I really like him that much. :-)
After our initial lunch date/protest march, we met again this past Sunday and Tuesday... each until about 2am... and I honestly didn't really want to part even then. It just became a practical matter of our both having to work the next day.
Sunday was very memorable for me for several reasons
- I opened up my IM log with a common friend for him to just read, in which I shared with them what I'd been thinking about Y. As I did it I realized I couldn't remember the whole conversation, but I let him read it anyway. I have a rule about not typing anything I wouldn't actually say in front of someone anyway, but I noticed that this was something I wouldn't just normally open up that easily.
- When Y asked about spending the weekend together, I opened up my calendar. At first he sounded sad because it had lots of things on it. I pointed out that I put things in there often to indicate I might do them but they aren't necessarily committed to. I pointed out that there was just one this weekend (B's piercing) that I really wanted to do, and he agreed we'd drive up to SF for that. squee! Again, it's been a very long time since I just wiped a weekend like that for someone... and I didn't even have to think about it.
- We spent a lot of time talking this evening. Very openly... about things that had been going through our minds. This level of intimacy is rare, especially this quickly. I was so struck by this I started to cry at one point... the sort of crying you do during those really Hallmark moments in a movie or something. Only in this case I wasn't crying in happiness for someone else.
Tuesday was a complete surprise. I had expected to go to the Rope Peer Bondage Workshop but the person I was hoping to demo for couldn't make it. Meantime, I got a call from S that L wanted to do dinner in Dublin that night. Hmm... Y would be working from home, so I noted that I would check with him about coming by to hang out later. Instead, S suggested inviting him to dinner, which I did and he accepted. I hadn't planned on doing friend introductions this soon, but I had no particular worries. They got along pretty well. L can be a bit of a challenge with new folks, but they bantered well I thought. :-) After, Y and I went back to his place (which is nearby to where we had dinner), watched a movie he had received from NetFlix, and then romped about for a while.
So here I am mere hours from the start of a weekend of solid time with him and I'm really excited. I've really enjoyed spending time with Y and I feel myself letting him see parts of me I don't normally show... and wanting to see those parts of him, too. I don't want to overthink this, and want to take things as they come. But I also want to recognize that I'm happy and at a place that's pretty rare for me to get to in relationships so far. I shared with Y that I think it's a good thing we didn't get together until after I'd been exploring myself through BDSM for a while... because it has helped me learn to embrace my vulnerability, and I think that's what I'm seeing express itself in how Y and I have been interacting so far.
OK. That's all for now. I'm running back through all the emotions and stuff from everything that's happened so far, and I'd rather be focused on now. Just wanted to catch up a little and promise to do this closer to actual events going forward. Maybe I'll have to start posting from my phone more now. :-)