....FINALLY a full entry about life.........
Yeah I never really got to finish what I was trying to say or what I was getting at. I am so tired. I have been trying to call a few friends lately to say hi because I feel the void of the same thing day after day and I want to see some more familar faces. I talked to Logan today and for a while there we were talking everyday. I think we are becoming closer friends or he is feeling lonely or both.All I really have to say Logan is a badass and a good friend. He has been there for me...even though we have a weird friendship.We grew up together as kids. His sister was my first best friend and is still but we haven't talked in ages! Well he moved to Texas and I see him every so often which is cool and now we are bedt friends even though in the beginning he was my brothers friend and I was his sisters. So he has known me pretty much my whole life and is my oldest friend. I called him today and I asked him to get a wristband and go treking around austin during south by southwest.I want to just go and see music for one pure week and that will be salvation.
Then I called David. What a silly boy I miss hanging out with him and I think I blow him off too much. Hopefully we will go downtown soon and party for once!
I guess I have been down a bit lately because it has been the same old shit everyday. Working makes me a zombie and I NEED BRAINS. I am working 6 days a week. Right now I technically have three jobs and I am a tiny little chick and it takes the piss out of me. I send most of my mornings (including early mornings like 1 a.m.) at the studio finishing projects or interning. Then I work at Conans all night. Always driving somewhere and there is always not enough money. My band I am working on is still writing songs and I have the recording bug in my system and I want to do a project and then again I have a million and one things to mix so I am stuck there.The brightside it the SXSW show we might get at Redrum and the show in May.Which will get us some money so thats good. And hopefully I will get money because I am needing it bad. Luckily I might get hired at the studio and if not that more manager shifts at Conans. But then again I am going to send a shitload of money on a computer so there that money goes!
My love Joe and I are okay. We spent his birthday at this bed and breakfast. I just wanted us to get away from everything and have a hide away somewhere. So I found this bed and breakfast downtown in this nice italian gothic suite and ate good food, chilled in this jacuzzi tub and watched movies and humped it was nice.I have been having a weird time lately. I think he is either bored of me or I am getting bored? It is mostly from these dreams I have been having. All of them have to do with them finding the love of my life. Last night was this one where I found this blonde Olympic swimmer and we met at this conference at this hotel. There was this torquoise ballroom and it was pure love at first site. Like he walked past and I did too and we both stopped and we were both talking to other people and then we were both trying to move closer to each other without anyone noticing and then I turn around and he is in front of me and he smiles and I smile and we say hi and introduce each other. Its weird because we both just knew. The rest of the time we couldn't kept our hands off each other not in a sexually way totally. It was like when we hold someone's hand and in your mind you are so into that moment kind of deal. But damn that was a hot dream....then I had one before that about Gerard Way (that beautiful creature from My Chemical Romance) and we made some crazy love in this dream and we were in love too. I don't have any idea what this all is suppose to mean??? I mean I was thinking that it was just that one dream but then they kept happening. Does it mean that I am going to find my true love soon? Or I should move on or bored? Anything at all? It is just weirding me out. But till I figure out what this all means I want to be with my joe joe and I will contunie to be obsessed with love for whatever reason.
But in conclusion to this I am tired and confused just like everyday.Good night.
Then I called David. What a silly boy I miss hanging out with him and I think I blow him off too much. Hopefully we will go downtown soon and party for once!
I guess I have been down a bit lately because it has been the same old shit everyday. Working makes me a zombie and I NEED BRAINS. I am working 6 days a week. Right now I technically have three jobs and I am a tiny little chick and it takes the piss out of me. I send most of my mornings (including early mornings like 1 a.m.) at the studio finishing projects or interning. Then I work at Conans all night. Always driving somewhere and there is always not enough money. My band I am working on is still writing songs and I have the recording bug in my system and I want to do a project and then again I have a million and one things to mix so I am stuck there.The brightside it the SXSW show we might get at Redrum and the show in May.Which will get us some money so thats good. And hopefully I will get money because I am needing it bad. Luckily I might get hired at the studio and if not that more manager shifts at Conans. But then again I am going to send a shitload of money on a computer so there that money goes!
My love Joe and I are okay. We spent his birthday at this bed and breakfast. I just wanted us to get away from everything and have a hide away somewhere. So I found this bed and breakfast downtown in this nice italian gothic suite and ate good food, chilled in this jacuzzi tub and watched movies and humped it was nice.I have been having a weird time lately. I think he is either bored of me or I am getting bored? It is mostly from these dreams I have been having. All of them have to do with them finding the love of my life. Last night was this one where I found this blonde Olympic swimmer and we met at this conference at this hotel. There was this torquoise ballroom and it was pure love at first site. Like he walked past and I did too and we both stopped and we were both talking to other people and then we were both trying to move closer to each other without anyone noticing and then I turn around and he is in front of me and he smiles and I smile and we say hi and introduce each other. Its weird because we both just knew. The rest of the time we couldn't kept our hands off each other not in a sexually way totally. It was like when we hold someone's hand and in your mind you are so into that moment kind of deal. But damn that was a hot dream....then I had one before that about Gerard Way (that beautiful creature from My Chemical Romance) and we made some crazy love in this dream and we were in love too. I don't have any idea what this all is suppose to mean??? I mean I was thinking that it was just that one dream but then they kept happening. Does it mean that I am going to find my true love soon? Or I should move on or bored? Anything at all? It is just weirding me out. But till I figure out what this all means I want to be with my joe joe and I will contunie to be obsessed with love for whatever reason.
But in conclusion to this I am tired and confused just like everyday.Good night.