2009.
Its 2009! A quick check at the last time i updated livejournal was a really long time ago. And i am not saying its a bad thing because at least all the attention on my livejournal have been diverted to blogspot here.
Which means more personal space/privacy/whateveryoucallit on livejournal, something i desire :]
So 2009 bids a fairly interesting year, not because its gonna be smooth sailing nor i expect it to be. Turbulence has been met since Christmas and did not cease till recently. You can say i am superstitious but i definitely believe in starting a new year well. But guess what, this new year was crap. If being superstitious sucks, yeah baby i can't agree more.
Then so much happened, the emotional struggles and countless breaking downs i managed to pick myself up and stay strong. Its cliche but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. I really don't know what got me going - a little faith? a little hope? a little love? or a very determined character? Whatever it is, it pulled me through.
Its definitely not fair that life has posed so many challenges to me thus far, and gut feeling says there's gotta be more. Sometimes thinking back i just find it so silly, wave after wave i just try to ride on them but i can't be riding waves all my life. Sometimes i just want to give up and let the wave devour me. I don't know but this is possibly the most negative thought i'd allow myself to entertain. Maybe this is what livejournal can be for, the honest reflection of everyday life instead of happy mindless rants on what has been and what is and what will be.
Still, i witnessed a change in me. I definitely became more positive in my outlook and more determined in general. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger, just like a weed - as long as my roots are in, the wind ain't gonna bring me down. It just makes me feel so happy and comforted that i've finally learnt to be more independent. After all these while where i just run around and keep afloat with a false belief in myself. Nah ah, now its real. I have finally seen the real me. I think school deludes people xD when there are too many assignments or whatnot clouding your development, your growth is stunted. Now that i am exposed to work and society and more personal boundaries, i feel that i can. Its not about what is or what will be, but what i want. Believing is seeing people :)
That's all for now. I end my note with a happy cheer~ ^_____^
Which means more personal space/privacy/whateveryoucallit on livejournal, something i desire :]
So 2009 bids a fairly interesting year, not because its gonna be smooth sailing nor i expect it to be. Turbulence has been met since Christmas and did not cease till recently. You can say i am superstitious but i definitely believe in starting a new year well. But guess what, this new year was crap. If being superstitious sucks, yeah baby i can't agree more.
Then so much happened, the emotional struggles and countless breaking downs i managed to pick myself up and stay strong. Its cliche but when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. I really don't know what got me going - a little faith? a little hope? a little love? or a very determined character? Whatever it is, it pulled me through.
Its definitely not fair that life has posed so many challenges to me thus far, and gut feeling says there's gotta be more. Sometimes thinking back i just find it so silly, wave after wave i just try to ride on them but i can't be riding waves all my life. Sometimes i just want to give up and let the wave devour me. I don't know but this is possibly the most negative thought i'd allow myself to entertain. Maybe this is what livejournal can be for, the honest reflection of everyday life instead of happy mindless rants on what has been and what is and what will be.
Still, i witnessed a change in me. I definitely became more positive in my outlook and more determined in general. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger, just like a weed - as long as my roots are in, the wind ain't gonna bring me down. It just makes me feel so happy and comforted that i've finally learnt to be more independent. After all these while where i just run around and keep afloat with a false belief in myself. Nah ah, now its real. I have finally seen the real me. I think school deludes people xD when there are too many assignments or whatnot clouding your development, your growth is stunted. Now that i am exposed to work and society and more personal boundaries, i feel that i can. Its not about what is or what will be, but what i want. Believing is seeing people :)
That's all for now. I end my note with a happy cheer~ ^_____^