please
i feel compelled to write something, but my mind is reeling and my chest feels heavy. panic... desperation.. insane? i just remembered how i used to think to myself "i want to go home.. i want to go home" when things went wrong... and i mean i don't just think that when im away.. i think it when i am already home. i dont know why, i dont know what i mean by home.. but i wanna go there. maybe its my way of saying i want to leave here, this room, this house, this state, this country, this world. i want to leave. i feel suffocated. someone please make it stop