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[tristen_c]

I got a lot accomplished today, resolved several things, hung out with friends...
but... for some reason at the end of the day I feel... hollow. etherial. empty.
The lack of feeling is almost painful. One voice returns and criticizes me
silently from the shadows. I cant identify it and i cant make it stop. I
can barely hear it but it's constant presence nags at my mind and soul
like a rusty iron spliner hidden too deep to retrieve. I'm a master
at missing opportunities and the voice never lets me forget it.
Lyrics creep into my mind from long ago and I don't know if
ive posted them before or not but here they are (again?)

The world is a thousand shades of grey
and the hollow pain within
pulses and aches
Pushing me out and pulling space in
Until im spread through the air
taken apart

The pieces float like motes of darkness
My body's gone and i float listless
My mind's in agony
With no place it can be
My soul feels the pain of my torn mind
As if it has been stretched tight as hide
My soul in torment spins
Why can't this be the end?

And then it begins again.