Is this REALLY how I feel?
ToasterBackflip: how are you
TrishTheDish321: tired
TrishTheDish321: u?
ToasterBackflip: i'm always tired, but i never sleep
TrishTheDish321: sucks
ToasterBackflip: melancholy most of the time
TrishTheDish321: why
ToasterBackflip: its in my nature
TrishTheDish321: thats no good
ToasterBackflip: happiness is not in abundance
TrishTheDish321: it can be i think
TrishTheDish321: if we tried hard enough
ToasterBackflip: i'm one of those kids who likes to wait for happiness to find him
ToasterBackflip: i dont nessicarily go out of my way looking for it
ToasterBackflip: i suppose i'm afraid to get hurt
ToasterBackflip: and i mean that in everything
TrishTheDish321: yes, i believe that happens to many of us
TrishTheDish321: I don't know if I've experienced happiness
TrishTheDish321: I know I've experienced NOT thinking about unhappiness
TrishTheDish321: but Im not sure if happiness is the absence of unhappiness or not
ToasterBackflip: exactly
ToasterBackflip: i have a philosophy that happiness doesnt exist
TrishTheDish321: really?
ToasterBackflip: rather, we just experiance different levels of being content with some one/thing
TrishTheDish321: why cant being content with some one\thing BE happiness
ToasterBackflip: who can say?
ToasterBackflip: happienss is too perfect to exist
TrishTheDish321: I dunno... people that have been in love persay
TrishTheDish321: Have THEY been happy?
ToasterBackflip: depends
TrishTheDish321: thats being content with someone
TrishTheDish321: and happiness
TrishTheDish321: i think
TrishTheDish321: no one i have loved has ever loved me back
ToasterBackflip: love can be translated into content... lust... greed... jealousy
ToasterBackflip: to love is to suffer
TrishTheDish321: you only say that because those you have loved have hurt you
ToasterBackflip: its true in every case
ToasterBackflip: even supposed "happily married" couples fight
TrishTheDish321: no
ToasterBackflip: happiness, by definition, does not exist
TrishTheDish321: it does tho
TrishTheDish321: people that have been hurt just choose not to see it
ToasterBackflip: people that think they're happy are ignorant, and just havent been hurt yet.
TrishTheDish321: or they've been hurt and choose not to let it rule the rest of their lives
ToasterBackflip: then they're ignorant
TrishTheDish321: not ignorant
TrishTheDish321: strong
ToasterBackflip: to be happy is to be ignorant
ToasterBackflip: you're just ignorning everything that is bad and horrible
ToasterBackflip: apathetic, even
TrishTheDish321: you're not ignoring it, your accepting it for what it is and living with it
ToasterBackflip: doenst mean one is not scarred
ToasterBackflip: living with it is just that
ToasterBackflip: to live with a scar
TrishTheDish321: and if you learn from the scar then should you be able to be happy
TrishTheDish321: *shouldn't
ToasterBackflip: whats to learn if happiness doesnt exist?
TrishTheDish321: I think it does exist
TrishTheDish321: just because we havent experienced it doesnt mean it doesnt exist
TrishTheDish321: I think we need a little more of life before we can make a statement such as "I'm happy"
ToasterBackflip: fair enough
TrishTheDish321: tired
TrishTheDish321: u?
ToasterBackflip: i'm always tired, but i never sleep
TrishTheDish321: sucks
ToasterBackflip: melancholy most of the time
TrishTheDish321: why
ToasterBackflip: its in my nature
TrishTheDish321: thats no good
ToasterBackflip: happiness is not in abundance
TrishTheDish321: it can be i think
TrishTheDish321: if we tried hard enough
ToasterBackflip: i'm one of those kids who likes to wait for happiness to find him
ToasterBackflip: i dont nessicarily go out of my way looking for it
ToasterBackflip: i suppose i'm afraid to get hurt
ToasterBackflip: and i mean that in everything
TrishTheDish321: yes, i believe that happens to many of us
TrishTheDish321: I don't know if I've experienced happiness
TrishTheDish321: I know I've experienced NOT thinking about unhappiness
TrishTheDish321: but Im not sure if happiness is the absence of unhappiness or not
ToasterBackflip: exactly
ToasterBackflip: i have a philosophy that happiness doesnt exist
TrishTheDish321: really?
ToasterBackflip: rather, we just experiance different levels of being content with some one/thing
TrishTheDish321: why cant being content with some one\thing BE happiness
ToasterBackflip: who can say?
ToasterBackflip: happienss is too perfect to exist
TrishTheDish321: I dunno... people that have been in love persay
TrishTheDish321: Have THEY been happy?
ToasterBackflip: depends
TrishTheDish321: thats being content with someone
TrishTheDish321: and happiness
TrishTheDish321: i think
TrishTheDish321: no one i have loved has ever loved me back
ToasterBackflip: love can be translated into content... lust... greed... jealousy
ToasterBackflip: to love is to suffer
TrishTheDish321: you only say that because those you have loved have hurt you
ToasterBackflip: its true in every case
ToasterBackflip: even supposed "happily married" couples fight
TrishTheDish321: no
ToasterBackflip: happiness, by definition, does not exist
TrishTheDish321: it does tho
TrishTheDish321: people that have been hurt just choose not to see it
ToasterBackflip: people that think they're happy are ignorant, and just havent been hurt yet.
TrishTheDish321: or they've been hurt and choose not to let it rule the rest of their lives
ToasterBackflip: then they're ignorant
TrishTheDish321: not ignorant
TrishTheDish321: strong
ToasterBackflip: to be happy is to be ignorant
ToasterBackflip: you're just ignorning everything that is bad and horrible
ToasterBackflip: apathetic, even
TrishTheDish321: you're not ignoring it, your accepting it for what it is and living with it
ToasterBackflip: doenst mean one is not scarred
ToasterBackflip: living with it is just that
ToasterBackflip: to live with a scar
TrishTheDish321: and if you learn from the scar then should you be able to be happy
TrishTheDish321: *shouldn't
ToasterBackflip: whats to learn if happiness doesnt exist?
TrishTheDish321: I think it does exist
TrishTheDish321: just because we havent experienced it doesnt mean it doesnt exist
TrishTheDish321: I think we need a little more of life before we can make a statement such as "I'm happy"
ToasterBackflip: fair enough