MY LIFE ISNT WORTH LIVING WITHOUT BR
IF I CAN'T GO TO THE BR SHOW I WILL END MYSELF.
Besides that, I realized how much of a Mom I am tonight. I was holding Kylie while doing the dishes and had Jack, Madison, and some other family members running around me trying to get my attention. All I needed was a phone between my shoulder and chin and something burning on the stove and POOF I'm your average TV mom. And you know what? It didn't bother me. I was completely overwhelmed and I kept cool and didn't break anyone. WEIRD. I don't LIKE kids but I just like... am good at them? Yeah.
I'm tired of my entries being depressing. I mean, who wants to hear that? Not I, said the Trish. So ummmmm. ::HAPPY::
Dude, I've been uber bitch lately. I don't know what has gotten into me.
I don't think its cool to date someone your friend obviously has feelings for. Personally I would have my pain over their pain any day. I don't care how much I was into them. I couldnt do it. I mean, yeah Emma liked Rich. Then I was with him or whatever. But it wasn't FEELINGS. It was about SEXUAL ATTRACTION for her. At least I think. If not then I'm a terrible person and a hypocrite. After what the kids that Im refering to went through, I KNOW I couldn't. I mean. I almost wanted to at one point. But NO. It's just not fuckin cool.
I MISS Emma. I saw her at the competition. I just don't feel like she's Emma anymore. Or maybe I'm not Trish anymore. I don't know. All I know is that I called her and left a message telling her how much I miss her and I got NOTHING in reply. I can't tell you how much that hurt.
I NEED some MUSIC in my life. I haven't been to a show in, like... 2 WEEKS! I MIGHT DIE!!! Seriously, I might become asexual and music can be my love. Now if only I had any talent...
P.S. Being ditched feels like SHIT
Besides that, I realized how much of a Mom I am tonight. I was holding Kylie while doing the dishes and had Jack, Madison, and some other family members running around me trying to get my attention. All I needed was a phone between my shoulder and chin and something burning on the stove and POOF I'm your average TV mom. And you know what? It didn't bother me. I was completely overwhelmed and I kept cool and didn't break anyone. WEIRD. I don't LIKE kids but I just like... am good at them? Yeah.
I'm tired of my entries being depressing. I mean, who wants to hear that? Not I, said the Trish. So ummmmm. ::HAPPY::
Dude, I've been uber bitch lately. I don't know what has gotten into me.
I don't think its cool to date someone your friend obviously has feelings for. Personally I would have my pain over their pain any day. I don't care how much I was into them. I couldnt do it. I mean, yeah Emma liked Rich. Then I was with him or whatever. But it wasn't FEELINGS. It was about SEXUAL ATTRACTION for her. At least I think. If not then I'm a terrible person and a hypocrite. After what the kids that Im refering to went through, I KNOW I couldn't. I mean. I almost wanted to at one point. But NO. It's just not fuckin cool.
I MISS Emma. I saw her at the competition. I just don't feel like she's Emma anymore. Or maybe I'm not Trish anymore. I don't know. All I know is that I called her and left a message telling her how much I miss her and I got NOTHING in reply. I can't tell you how much that hurt.
I NEED some MUSIC in my life. I haven't been to a show in, like... 2 WEEKS! I MIGHT DIE!!! Seriously, I might become asexual and music can be my love. Now if only I had any talent...
P.S. Being ditched feels like SHIT