Easy Come...
Sunday was another meeting (date?) with the girl I've gotten to know the past few weeks. I took her to the Albright-Knox Art Museum in Buffalo, followed by a performance of "The Tempest" at Shakespeare in Delaware Park. We both had a good time, but while we get along, there was no handholding; nothing above small talk. Like a barrier.
Although she said she had had a great time (and admittedly, so did I), I still had doubts about the relationship aspect. Was I missing some signs or something? How could things be so friendly yet so... cold? I texted her tonight asking if she had wanted me to hold her hand Sunday. She replied back saying that would've made her uncomfortable. A few hours later, we talked on the phone.
I asked her how she felt about things, and she admitted she didn't get anything but "friend vibes" from me. I admitted I had been feeling the same--I certainly hadn't been feeling any romantic vibes, at least--and we agreed to be friends. I honestly think that can work, given the circumstances.
There's still some disappointment, and I can vaguely feel that sense of "here comes the void!" creeping in, but overall things are not bad at all. I really didn't expect something like this to happen at this time in my life, anyway, so it doesn't feel like I've lost much. And really, I've gained a friend.
Although she said she had had a great time (and admittedly, so did I), I still had doubts about the relationship aspect. Was I missing some signs or something? How could things be so friendly yet so... cold? I texted her tonight asking if she had wanted me to hold her hand Sunday. She replied back saying that would've made her uncomfortable. A few hours later, we talked on the phone.
I asked her how she felt about things, and she admitted she didn't get anything but "friend vibes" from me. I admitted I had been feeling the same--I certainly hadn't been feeling any romantic vibes, at least--and we agreed to be friends. I honestly think that can work, given the circumstances.
There's still some disappointment, and I can vaguely feel that sense of "here comes the void!" creeping in, but overall things are not bad at all. I really didn't expect something like this to happen at this time in my life, anyway, so it doesn't feel like I've lost much. And really, I've gained a friend.