oh, you know...
Had a very lazy day today, been ridiculously exhausted lately, probably hormones or something.
Got my hair cut, it's short for the first time in years, but it's so different from the last time it was short and I really love it this time. It's so enjoyable to have it short again. It's taken a little getting used to though. I was happy with it from the moment I got it cut, but then I would start to get all nervous in public, feeling like people were staring at me or something...I had a hard time feeling pretty/feminine for a bit, but I'm getting over that. In other news, I'm feeling rather stagnent. I mean, I know I'm going to school at Evergreen, and I'm so excited about it, but I'm having a hard time getting really amped for it since I can't really do much to get ready from here. Since school is going to be across the country it's not like I can buy supplies of anything since I'd have to deal with moving it so far...I'm itching to do something to feel like I'm getting ready but for now I just have to sit tight.
Also, I've gained some weight recently, though I'm not sure how much since I'm too damn scared to get on the scale. I feel like an idiot being all whiney about having gained a few pounds, but after having been so overweight and then having to work so hard to shed it all the idea of gaining weight, any weight, is terrifying. So I'm feeling kind of icky about that at the moment, but I'm trying to be patient and not freak out. My mom thinks that it might be caused by my hormones being kinda nuts since I'm on birth control (in an attempt to get my period back, since it's been A.W.O.L for like 7 months now). Hopefully that explains it, though I know I've been a little less then strict with myself and my portion sizes, etc...
Right, well I'm going to stop boring anyone who's reading this with the details of my diet...
I'm craving some Top Model, why is there never a marathon when I want one? Oh well, life's tough...hehehehe...
Got my hair cut, it's short for the first time in years, but it's so different from the last time it was short and I really love it this time. It's so enjoyable to have it short again. It's taken a little getting used to though. I was happy with it from the moment I got it cut, but then I would start to get all nervous in public, feeling like people were staring at me or something...I had a hard time feeling pretty/feminine for a bit, but I'm getting over that. In other news, I'm feeling rather stagnent. I mean, I know I'm going to school at Evergreen, and I'm so excited about it, but I'm having a hard time getting really amped for it since I can't really do much to get ready from here. Since school is going to be across the country it's not like I can buy supplies of anything since I'd have to deal with moving it so far...I'm itching to do something to feel like I'm getting ready but for now I just have to sit tight.
Also, I've gained some weight recently, though I'm not sure how much since I'm too damn scared to get on the scale. I feel like an idiot being all whiney about having gained a few pounds, but after having been so overweight and then having to work so hard to shed it all the idea of gaining weight, any weight, is terrifying. So I'm feeling kind of icky about that at the moment, but I'm trying to be patient and not freak out. My mom thinks that it might be caused by my hormones being kinda nuts since I'm on birth control (in an attempt to get my period back, since it's been A.W.O.L for like 7 months now). Hopefully that explains it, though I know I've been a little less then strict with myself and my portion sizes, etc...
Right, well I'm going to stop boring anyone who's reading this with the details of my diet...
I'm craving some Top Model, why is there never a marathon when I want one? Oh well, life's tough...hehehehe...