I actually know what it feels like.... In Feb I was late... way late... thought it was stress, by, I did know otherwise... Got a test... I was.... No idea what to do... scared to death... unsure.... no idea what I was gonna do... only that ... I had to tell my fience... He was thrilled... that was Feb 18. I was over a month along...
I freeked out.. I was happy, but scared... No one knew except for me, boy, and a friend of his.... then eventually a friend of mine...
March 8.... four days after my birthday... had horrid pains at work... told a guy coworker of mine that I think I was gonna misscarry that night... not home 5 minutes and I did.
Atleast I didnt' have to be scared anymore.... And I didn't have to tell my mom and disappoint her that I was preggers before marriage (like her.... only... I knew who the guy was) I didnt' have to disappoint any of my family... they still don't know... I found a pic of me when I found out... took one of me with my tummy profile... i'm keeping that and the test...
found out... that was my third.... the other two were maybe a month along... I didn't know, and wasn't sure the other two times... didn't take a test on those...... didn't know.... but... the pain I had when I had my knowing miscarrage was the same... a dreadful pain...
I don't wanna go through any of that again.... Yes, it is scary not knowing... but... its better to know... and, there are people who you can talk to if you want.... Me for one. I didn't talk to anyone... but that was my choice.
PS... no mention of this at all in my journal. Please....
In Feb I was late... way late... thought it was stress, by, I did know otherwise... Got a test... I was....
No idea what to do... scared to death... unsure.... no idea what I was gonna do... only that ... I had to tell my fience...
He was thrilled...
that was Feb 18.
I was over a month along...
I freeked out.. I was happy, but scared... No one knew except for me, boy, and a friend of his.... then eventually a friend of mine...
March 8.... four days after my birthday... had horrid pains at work... told a guy coworker of mine that I think I was gonna misscarry that night...
not home 5 minutes and I did.
Atleast I didnt' have to be scared anymore....
And I didn't have to tell my mom and disappoint her that I was preggers before marriage (like her.... only... I knew who the guy was)
I didnt' have to disappoint any of my family... they still don't know...
I found a pic of me when I found out... took one of me with my tummy profile... i'm keeping that and the test...
found out... that was my third.... the other two were maybe a month along... I didn't know, and wasn't sure the other two times... didn't take a test on those...... didn't know.... but... the pain I had when I had my knowing miscarrage was the same... a dreadful pain...
I don't wanna go through any of that again....
Yes, it is scary not knowing... but... its better to know... and, there are people who you can talk to if you want.... Me for one. I didn't talk to anyone... but that was my choice.
PS... no mention of this at all in my journal. Please....
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thanks for it, though. it's always nice to hear that someone cares.
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