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I know I don't write often, and I am hopefully going to change that, much like I've always said, but I've had a lot of things on my mind and need a place to vent them - where those I vent about have no access to see. That is where this place comes in. Caught in the middle - that is where I usually am when there is a miscommunication, a break down in communication or just when things go wrong.
The new roommate is proving to be slow at adapting to the life that he has now found himself in. Which is unfortunate, as it is causing all sorts of "wonderful" tension and uneasiness amongst the lovely little unit we have built in the house. There is a third party that is helping, and hopefully he will be able to make a difference - but it is slow going in changing things. We will be having another roommate, for a bit, starting on Monday, and this is one that we know will do well to fit in and perhaps may make things a bit easier.
I have had to keep a lot of things bottled, sealed away because I'm afraid of upsetting the thread-bare balance that has been established. I know in and of itself, this is not a good thing, because it will ultimately lead to a shredding of that balance when I finally do snap and everything comes pouring out in one uncapped torrent of emotion. So, I find ways to deal, which is why I am considering Nano this year, and pray that I can actually finish it and my story idea will not die around 2000 words - as has occured in my past attempts at the ever ellusive 50,000.
I have learned something in the past few months, I am averaging about one snap a month - usually around the end of the month, right about the time I start my period - go figure! Between work, and trying to find a new job, and people wanting money that I do not have and have no chance in coming up with because I will not let my family starve. I can not let my family starve.
Anyway, I think, it is safer for me if I let this entry rest for now, before I say things that will ruin the somewhat decent mood I've found myself in for the first time in several days.
The new roommate is proving to be slow at adapting to the life that he has now found himself in. Which is unfortunate, as it is causing all sorts of "wonderful" tension and uneasiness amongst the lovely little unit we have built in the house. There is a third party that is helping, and hopefully he will be able to make a difference - but it is slow going in changing things. We will be having another roommate, for a bit, starting on Monday, and this is one that we know will do well to fit in and perhaps may make things a bit easier.
I have had to keep a lot of things bottled, sealed away because I'm afraid of upsetting the thread-bare balance that has been established. I know in and of itself, this is not a good thing, because it will ultimately lead to a shredding of that balance when I finally do snap and everything comes pouring out in one uncapped torrent of emotion. So, I find ways to deal, which is why I am considering Nano this year, and pray that I can actually finish it and my story idea will not die around 2000 words - as has occured in my past attempts at the ever ellusive 50,000.
I have learned something in the past few months, I am averaging about one snap a month - usually around the end of the month, right about the time I start my period - go figure! Between work, and trying to find a new job, and people wanting money that I do not have and have no chance in coming up with because I will not let my family starve. I can not let my family starve.
Anyway, I think, it is safer for me if I let this entry rest for now, before I say things that will ruin the somewhat decent mood I've found myself in for the first time in several days.