blessing or a curse...i can't decide
so i found my old diaryland journals. i thought they were lost forever. but they are still there. and just reading a very few from like 2001. it breaks my heart. i want to be like that again. i want to be able to praise God for absolutely everything. i want to have the joy that it seemed like i did. i mean, i could have been faking. i can't remember anymore. but, the words seem like they are full of joy (as well as a lot of slang and abreviations, but that's besides the point). how do i get there again?! how do i continue to grow instead of sink? i want to change and rearrange who i am. God how do i do that? HOW?
please be patient. and please help me. those words seem to be full of truth. and adoration for my savior. but, what happened? how did i let things change? and more importantly, how do i change again?
it will be a process. and hopefully when i find this journal in 4 years, i can smile and know that i moved forward and upward.
please be patient. and please help me. those words seem to be full of truth. and adoration for my savior. but, what happened? how did i let things change? and more importantly, how do i change again?
it will be a process. and hopefully when i find this journal in 4 years, i can smile and know that i moved forward and upward.