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I have been thinking alot lately on why Im here.. such as what are some things that make me special that I could use to make mine and others lives better. How I can make an impact on the world, what makes me special.. what makes me do the things I do.
Its things like this I wish I could know the answers for one life would be alot easier and for the other reason it would just be so I could know what to focus on, in life, in relationships.. and education.
I want to help people.. I want to be surrounded by people.. and I want people who I can trust.
Im scared Im headed back into the time where I was so depressed and I dont want to.
Alot of things have changed for me I have learned to mask true feelings and lie to others.. Its sad cause no one knows me .. like all of me Most people have like that one best friend youve had since elementary school that knows everything about you and you could trust anything with. .. I dont know so many things I wish I could just quit.. and give up and in the end I always make it through only to repeat the exact same things over again.
Im not exactly sure what all this is and what it is suppose to mean to those who read it, but whatever. I felt like writing it all down .. and Im sure tomarrow things will be better Im sure Ill just pretend to be happy.
Im so frekin selfish with all this tragedy around me I have such an unempathatic attitude I guess in a sense Im lucky.. But I seriuosly would switch lives with anyone right now.
Its things like this I wish I could know the answers for one life would be alot easier and for the other reason it would just be so I could know what to focus on, in life, in relationships.. and education.
I want to help people.. I want to be surrounded by people.. and I want people who I can trust.
Im scared Im headed back into the time where I was so depressed and I dont want to.
Alot of things have changed for me I have learned to mask true feelings and lie to others.. Its sad cause no one knows me .. like all of me Most people have like that one best friend youve had since elementary school that knows everything about you and you could trust anything with. .. I dont know so many things I wish I could just quit.. and give up and in the end I always make it through only to repeat the exact same things over again.
Im not exactly sure what all this is and what it is suppose to mean to those who read it, but whatever. I felt like writing it all down .. and Im sure tomarrow things will be better Im sure Ill just pretend to be happy.
Im so frekin selfish with all this tragedy around me I have such an unempathatic attitude I guess in a sense Im lucky.. But I seriuosly would switch lives with anyone right now.