Random thoughts
So I ran. I was afraid of how deeply she could hurt me. I haven't felt anything like I did for her in a very long time. I don't think she understood. Or worst yet..maybe she did. She is not in the wrong. I am not scorned. I am not spiteful. For her she will wonder for maybe one week where I went, then nothing. Me on the other hand remember my first love 4 years later like it was yesterday. I don't know how she loved me. I don't think she was ever going to let me know. I can accept that, but it isn't healthy for me. Samantha, Amber, Ashlee, Amanda and Danyell. Now her. Why must I always be the one to walk away. Am I running, or just walking in the direction they want? I wish I could say I knew. I wish I could say I haven't made any mistake. That each choice I made to that regard has been to all of our benefits. But has it? The odds don't favor it.