I am very angry with myself right now.
So I have to stop work on the other journal because i've run into a problem. Screen readers aren't picking up the iframes! So I'll write in here until i fix that problem. Also class work is taking up a lot of my time so I haven't been writing as much.
I just had to write about this though.
I woke up this morning from a rather un-nerving dream. I think it was a mix of my own fears as well as the fact that I missed Soma play at CBRs last night. It was also a continuation of a dream that I had a few days previously.
In the previous dream John (the lead singer from soma)'s girlfriend was shot at a club. (This was before the whole deal at the alrosa with damageplan might I add) That dream mostly consisted of her death and the chaos that ensued.
The dream I had last night was like the aftermath. It was a few months after her death and John and I were talking about it. One thing lead to another and he started flirting with me. I kept telling him that I didn't want to hurt Brandon and that I wouldn't hurt Brandon because I love him too much. John leaned forward and kissed me anyway and that's when I woke up, shaking and scared.
What I don't get is I don't even think of John in that way. He's an awesome guy but he's more like family to me than anything. He and his girlfriend are so cool! This dream bothered me so much that I was shaking for like 20 minutes after I woke up. I also started crying and it's still bothering me even now.
I just had to write about this though.
I woke up this morning from a rather un-nerving dream. I think it was a mix of my own fears as well as the fact that I missed Soma play at CBRs last night. It was also a continuation of a dream that I had a few days previously.
In the previous dream John (the lead singer from soma)'s girlfriend was shot at a club. (This was before the whole deal at the alrosa with damageplan might I add) That dream mostly consisted of her death and the chaos that ensued.
The dream I had last night was like the aftermath. It was a few months after her death and John and I were talking about it. One thing lead to another and he started flirting with me. I kept telling him that I didn't want to hurt Brandon and that I wouldn't hurt Brandon because I love him too much. John leaned forward and kissed me anyway and that's when I woke up, shaking and scared.
What I don't get is I don't even think of John in that way. He's an awesome guy but he's more like family to me than anything. He and his girlfriend are so cool! This dream bothered me so much that I was shaking for like 20 minutes after I woke up. I also started crying and it's still bothering me even now.