Moon's room: Danni, Moon

[tribal_moon]

With Danni following her from the stairs, Moon walked into her room. She had felt a little burst of resolve - she was going to tell Danni that last night was a little mistake, and there would be no hard feelings, then go and get her breakfast. But as soon as she and Danni were stood in her room, Moon's streak of courage deserted her, and she just

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[tribal_moon]

Danni's kisses made Moon's head spin, and there were moments where she simply didn't believe that this could be real. Maybe it wasn't, maybe she had been stuck in the same elaborate dream since last night.

Danni's simple question, What do we do now? confirmed that this wasn't a dream. This was real, happening, and heading towards some unknown outcome.

"I don't know, Danni," she said, shaking her head. It was the truth - until a few seconds ago she had refused to accept that there was anything going on at all, let alone how it could turn out. Since then she had been existing in the moment only - each kiss, each touch - she didn't dare think of anything more. Things seemed to be changing so fast, and Moon could hardly keep up.

Pushing a strand of hair from Danni's face, Moon spoke slowly. "I think... maybe..." Moon had yet again started a sentence without knowing what she was going to say. What were they going to do? Certainly there was no way that anyone could know about this, not ever. Moon was suddenly struck with negative images of being sent away, being punished for her wrongdoings. At the very least she would always be an outsider, someone on the receiving end of others' hostility - she didn't want that for either of them.

Filled with fear yet again, Moon stepped back away from Danni and sat on the edge of her bed. Looking up at Danni, eyes wide and worried, she urged, "We mustn't tell anyone about this, we can't."

[tribal_danni]

Danni's face fell when Moon said that they had to keep things quiet. Was this way of saying that she didn't want.... didn't want what? Danni had no idea where this could all go. Was she seriously considering having a relationship with a woman? She guessed she was. She didn't know why this had happened, but it must have happened for a reason. But now, did what Moon said mean she didn't want the same? Danni felt like she was treading on dangerous ground here. She certainly didn't know where she stood on all this, and was desperate for answers. The only trouble was she didn't know what questions to ask.

Feeling courageous, Danni approached Moon where she was sat. She knelt down in front of her and took her hands in her own, holding them gently, hoping to reassure Moon that she was genuine. She had no option but to put her heart on the line here and be completely honest. She knew she stood a good chance of being rejected, but she guessed that she would never know unless she was completely honest with Moon.

"Moon, I... I don't know why this has happened, but it has and we can't deny it, not to ourselves. I can't speak for you or how you feel, but I definately feel something, something here." Danni took one of Moon's hands and placed it against her chest so that Moon could feel just how fast her heart was beating right now. "I don't care who knows what has happened, but I will respect your decision for no one to find out. Just don't tell me that this has meant nothing to you. Please, tell me you feel the same." Danni looked up at Moon's eyes, almost imporing her with her own not to let this go.

[tribal_moon]

Moon was taken aback by Danni's words, a curious tingle running up her spine as she felt Danni's heartbeat, as fast and powerful as her own. For the first time it actually dawned on her that what was happening here might be seen in terms of an affair of some description, the kind of bond that she had only ever thought was possible between a man and woman. It had never occurred to her that it could be any other way.

But now, sitting here, with the way Danni was looking at her, how could there not be? "Of course it means something," she said, desperate to reassure Danni, "it means... I don't know what it means, it confuses me so much. But," she paused, realising that she was trembling, and taking a deep breath, "I know I don't want to lose you." Moon lowered her eyes to rest on her and Danni's entwined hands.

[tribal_danni]

"Me neither." Danni said, relieved to hear what Moon had said. Maintaining eye contact with Moon Danni continued to speak. "I'm confused too, but how can this be such a wrong thing, if it's what we both want?" Danni questioned. Danni hoped it was what Moon wanted too. It was one thing to acknowledge how you feel, but to act on it? That was something else entirely.

"You won't lose me Moon, I promise." Danni said, leaning up to kiss Moon softly once more. Danni had no idea how all this was going to work out, she simply wanted Moon to know she was there for her, and she wanted this to happen. Pulling back, Danni spoke once more. "If you need some time to think, I'll understand." She said, not wanting Moon to think that she was being pressured into doing something she wasn't entirely sure about.

[tribal_moon]

Time to think," repeated Moon absently, once again feeling dizzy from Danni's kiss, this time soft and tender. Thinking was not something that her brain could cope with right now. She felt hazy and disoriented, as if she were detached from the whole situation, just an onlooker who had no idea what was happening.

What is there to think about? The voice in her head laughed suddenly, mockingly. That girl is trouble, and you know it. You always did know how to find trouble. Moon bowed her head ashamedly, a lifelong habit. The voice gained strength. Well... you can't say I didn't warn you, hmm? But no, you just charge on regardless, never thinking about the consequences. Foolish girl!

Moon pulled her hand away from Danni's abruptly, pressing her palm against her forehead, willing the voice to stop. But it didn't - it just kept on chiding her, filling her with guilt for what she had done.

"Maybe time is a good idea," she said weakly, looking back at Danni for a moment. In that glance she saw Danni's soft concern, and it made her heart ache. How was she going to fix this?