Bonding with mom.
Yeah so this entry happens a week after mother's day but it is all about my mom, just deal with it.
I never realized how much my mom is. I never quite realized all the things she's taught me. All the ways she's taught me to be. Mom and I spent the day yesterday together getting a care package together for a soldier that we know who has recently been deployed to Afghanistan. We got a pretty decent amount of stuff together for him, and she insisted on the foot cream... she's a mom. While we were doing all of this for him, I started to think of all the things I've learned from my mom over the years. There are so many little pieces of wisdom she's given me. I never understood growing up, why everyone always came here, and why everyone loved my mom and adopted her as their own... maybe its because I live so far away from her now, but I get it now. I hope that when I grow I can be half the woman she is. I've learned so many lessons from her. I've learned that sometimes its just about understanding somethings just are... that somedays its ok to just survive... that feeling sad is just as important as feeling happy... it's only as bad as you make it, and as good as well... happiness you work at, it doesn't just happen... anything is worth the risk if you want to be happy... you do things not because it'll make you feel good, or make you important; you do it because its the right thing to do... always do what you feel is right... learning to shut up, is just as important as learning to speak... that no matter what, you can always be a lady... that working hard for something makes it worth something... that it isn't all about having it easy... that just because its not as expensive doesn't mean its not as good (i.e. colleges)... that you have no control over anyone else... that you aren't really in control of everything... there is a reason for everything that happens, and no you might never no why... don't do it if it'll make it harder to look in the mirror in the morning... sometimes just give it up to god... always keep your dignity... learn to do things for yourself... always do somethings just for yourself... people will believe anything they hear... don't put faith in what other people think... you make too much of their sense, when you care what they think... keep the ones that encourage you to do better, and challenge you to change... learn to forgive... you don't always have to forget... learn grace...learn to live... go where you want... do what you want... be what you want... shop the sale rack first...learn to love, and love well.
she's taught me so much and I never totally appreciated it. I guess I do now... so yeah thats my belated mother's day entry.