Life makes me sad sometimes...

[trendyboy17]

I know that my journal is becoming more and more of a bitching journal but oh well. I really don't understand myself. I was going to say that I don't understand life, but more so, I don't understand myself. I feel so stuck here, I hate Dixon. And even after it being such an unsafe place for me for so long I still stay here. I use to have such big

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[sp0ttedzebra]

honey.. I think you need to do whats in YOUR heart.. no body else's.. YOU need to do whats best for YOU. sometimes making a life plan works for some people.. give yourself a time frame in which you'd like to accomplish certain goals.. this year I'll go traveling, this year I'll take a few courses in this or that, and while I'm at it, since I was to be *this* when I grow up, maybe I'll get some training for that as well..

You can never live your life while living in the place you despise. but also I don't think you're looking at everything as a whole. you say "hey I live in Dixon" but along with that sentence you see sheep, hicks, nothing ever to do, we arewn't even on a map, blah blah blah.. you're looking at the negative points, try looking that the positives to living in dixon.. cheaper gas, barely any crime, it's small so you don't have to drive 20 minutes just to get across town, for the most part people are freindly.. etc.. I mean of course you're looking at the negatives because you're upset. I understand this.. why are you upset? because you hit your breaking point. I know you Anthony.. you let people walk all over you and you know it, but it drifts to the back of your head, and when you've had enough of people telling you how to live, you explode. try not to get to that exploding part.. don't let people walk all over you - thats how you wont explode. I'm not trying to tell you how to live, or that you should change, or whatever.. I'm really trying to help you. I don't want you to expplode in a really bad way & have you regret a bunch of crap you didn't intend to happen.. I love you? and I don't like seeing you mad all the time.. think about it.. it could always be worse.