It seems like forever...
Wow, so my last enty was really sad. But I can't help the way that I feel. I am kind of in a sad mood right now, but trying to think of all the happy thoughts that I have somewhere inside. So yeah, any minute I should be smiling... NOPE. Oh well, So I went and visited josh this weekend, it was so much fun. We had a great time, we did cool things and it was just really nice to see him. Once again, I have something to add to my list of things that josh has that I don't. He is skinny, not just like slim, but really skinny. He says he eats, but I don't believe him. I was kind of worried but as long as he is happy then I guess it is all good. My birthday is tomorrow. I can't believe that I am going to be 20... And yet, I am still lost, floating in the middle of the ocean, hoping to find land. Someday, someday I will find land, that or sprout fins and be a mermaid like thing. I am tired, sleep consumes me when I am at work, yet at home I can't pull myself to sleep. I am not looking forward to tomorrow. I have to work, it is loud, and I know that I am going to be hot. I always feel so hot I am uncomfortable. I am always asking others if they are hot and they look at me like I am crazy. I think that I have a brain tumor, maybe I am going to die? Yikes, well on the up side, I could ask Make a wish to send me to Europe to die. Oh and FYI, do not let my mother cremate me... Please.