Tuesday, October 03, 2006 - summer is over now
During the summer, there were some times when I wondered why I woke up in the morning. I would wake up at 6:30 am the time when my boyfriend wakes up to go to work. then I would go back to sleep maybe wake up at 10 or 11am and I wait until my b/f gets home from work at about 6pm. I sit on my myspace, look online, read magazines, sketch in my sketchbook, listen to music, eat food, and take my dogs out. When my boyfriend gets home he goes online, he plays games, makes music with different programs, while I sit there waiting reading magazines or watching him. Then we would eat food. I would wait to go to bed. I would wake up to wait to just go to bed. The weekdays I would wait for the week. Summer I just wait until fall. I felt like I was just waiting to die.
During the weekdays, I had nothing to do. I cannot drive, so there was nowhere to go. I did not really know anyone well enough or that did not do anything during the day to do anything with. My sister went to summer school, my mom worked, my boyfriend worked, and my brother spent the day with either his friends or playing video games or he was at football practice.
When my mom got home, she yells at me because all I do is sit there in my dark room on my computer. She would say things like "it's a beautiful day outside why don't you go do something all day." I did not know what she expected me to do.
One day I went into the bathroom and saw my brother Buddha collection and they looked like they were having a party so I made them party hats. I cut small shapes from pieces of paper and then rolled them into hats, taped the sides and then drew balloons and the words "party time" on them. After that I took pictures and posted them on my myspace.com profile
Sometimes during the summer, I would clean my room. I organized my accessory boxes and my clothes. I washed my computer desk. I added many friends on myspace. Yeah sometimes myspace gets in the way of me doing things I need to be doing. I organized some folders on my computer.
During the summer I also I got myself kicked off of vampirefreaks.com until July 11th. The reason was that I unthinkingly posted a picture of me in front of a Nazi flag. The photo was taken at a museum that I was at the day before I posted the picture. I honestly don't remember posting the picture on vampirefreaks.com. I know I did posted it on myspace. which I got a lot of hate letters for. My family is Jewish! How the would I be a Nazi?
I am Jewish because my family is Jewish. So I am the first one to step up to defend it. however I am not Jewish because I don't believe in or know anything about the Religion. at the same time I don't consider Judaism as a race. Its funny that people that consider themselves open-minded are the first to jump at people that they think have Fascist ideals. When in fact by doing so they are being close-minded themselves.
I have friends from all types of backgrounds and they have many different ideas. Friends that are right wing, left wing, Christians, Jewish, Wiccans, Pagans, Satanist, black, white, Hispanic.... and many other cultures, races, nationalities and religions. I feel that if they are good person and have good qualities to be a friend, if they have common interest or willing to share there interest why not be their friend.