WOW
Man, it has been a looooong ass time since I last went on this thing. I was reading some past entries, some of them are cool to reminiss and some just remind me of how crazy i really farcking am. its intense shit. life sucks pretty bad and sometimes i think the world would be better off without me, how are you feeling today? i need to get a solid job man, i feel like a pimple on the ass of the planet. just a worthless scum sucking worm, and i prolly am. I look back at these entries and shit and i found out where i went wrong in life so far, and it sucks to realize it.....now its all about trying to get back what i once had in my life...... STABILITY. im trying to go to school in september like i had planned but things look shakier by the day. my relationship with my family gets worse by the week, and im a broke ass scum fuck...someone shoot me.....but on the bright side i kicked the ciggarette habit for good!! as for grass, its a daily strugggle, i cant live being a pothead anymore....i started smoking heavily prolly a lil before my last relationship ended bout a year ago. i used it as a mean to escape, now i cant even escae the couch. why do i do it to myself, i brought this all on.....ps im not going to do anything crazy like suicide or nuthin, this is how i ramble bitch