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A few months ago while walking down the street someone started talking to me and the person I was with about this organization that works for low income people to have more just employment, and also works for legislation. Well, when they started talking to us they were telling us about how the people involved have to make below a certain amount of money, which both of us made. They then told us they weren't accepting new people to be involved as workers, only people to volunteer or fund their organization. I didn't really mind that part-what I minded was that they assumed that because I was walking down Monroe Ave that I had money. What a completely faulty assumption. These people were basically taken aback that either of us could possibly be making less money than the requirement.
Tonight they called asking me for money and I told them I really don't have money to give them. They then asked me to volunteer at which point I said I am going to be moving to Buffalo in 4 days. They then asked me if in the future they start an organization in Buffalo would I be willing to organize with them.
I said no. I am not willing. I'm just simply not. I need to take my time outside of work and make it time for me. I am not volunteering anymore. My jobs-whatever they are, are always strenuous enough. And helpful enough. And good enough. YES it's important to organize but I'll most likely be working inside of a neighborhood based non profit that has the main focus of organizing for urban sustainable housing. I just don't want to and can't give anymore outside of that. Anyways I'll be working another job just to pay for going out, shopping, and having fun because I will certainly not make enough money for that.
For some reason I have a huge amount of resentment. I am becoming one of those people that thinks, "No! I do ENOUGH! I am exhausted already! Let me live my own life!"
I don't know when that started happening and I don't know how I feel about it, but I feel it very strongly.
Tonight they called asking me for money and I told them I really don't have money to give them. They then asked me to volunteer at which point I said I am going to be moving to Buffalo in 4 days. They then asked me if in the future they start an organization in Buffalo would I be willing to organize with them.
I said no. I am not willing. I'm just simply not. I need to take my time outside of work and make it time for me. I am not volunteering anymore. My jobs-whatever they are, are always strenuous enough. And helpful enough. And good enough. YES it's important to organize but I'll most likely be working inside of a neighborhood based non profit that has the main focus of organizing for urban sustainable housing. I just don't want to and can't give anymore outside of that. Anyways I'll be working another job just to pay for going out, shopping, and having fun because I will certainly not make enough money for that.
For some reason I have a huge amount of resentment. I am becoming one of those people that thinks, "No! I do ENOUGH! I am exhausted already! Let me live my own life!"
I don't know when that started happening and I don't know how I feel about it, but I feel it very strongly.