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It's been fucking forever since I've felt compelled to update this dusty ass piece of internerd history in the life of myself. But for some reason I'm feeling the vibe today and I'm going to just drop some updates or something.
In my time since I last wrote in this thing I've basically been getting through life as best as I can.
Doing the whole two jobs thing sucks, but realizing how many people have to do it too sucks even more.
The state of our social and global economies is almost sickening to me. When I wake up everyday and see the drug dealers living across the street in this house that is falling down around them and realize that they are inside watching a big screen TV... it fucking tears me up. There are people who are killing themselves at jobs with high risks (i.e. the 12 of 13 miners who were just killed in WV in a mining disaster...the reason it is a disaster not an accident is because the mine was known to be unsafe and unsuited for workers and yet the company refused to implement safe working environment provisions or follow particular regulations that could have helped prevent this tragedy)and yet there are people who do nothing with their lives, who sell drugs, or who were born into money who are far from self-sufficient and who have no concept of what the average working class slob has to go through everyday, and who promote the social decay by encouraging ignorance, and by carelessly spending money that was either inherited or given to them via welfare. And it just fucking burns me up to know that there are people younger then me all the way to people my grandparents ages who are dying at multiple jobs just so that they can afford a place to live and so that they can afford basic cable.
Outside of working two jobs and being completely disgusted with social welfare in this country as well as in others, I've come to realize that blind faith isn't something for me. I guess that I never really felt that it was, but it's so ingrained in each of us since we're born to just blindly go to church, read your bible verses, memorize them, hold them close to your heart, and your faith will carry you through. But in these past few months I've realized that the bible alone is not enough for me... it's merely a book of stories, and like any other story there is some factitious base for it, but over all the bible is still just a collection of stories that were passed down through thousands of generations, from gentry to the beggars, from presidents to the needy so that the weak minds of the world could be suppressed by fleeting hope found in church sermons and written across pages of fables. And I've just come to realize that this life is ours, and if there is in fact a God above (which I do believe there is after having faced particular extenuating circumstances in my own life) who has given us free will, it is up to us to make our own paths in use of the free will given to us. There is nothing that I hate more when it comes to religious fanatics than those people who are so insecure with their own abilities as people left to live lives of their own design, that they spend all of their lives clinging to God's word and living completely sheltered and fearful lives and wind up miserable and empty, laying on their deathbeds alone still searching for some sort of happiness or peace in a world of "god's creation" that has left them unfulfilled. Enjoy your lives people! The reason you're so unfulfilled is because you never lived, you never took advantage of what your god has created for you. Instead people just sit back and let life happen around them. They get stuck living in this good Christian bubble, and they do nothing other than "god's work." Which this too bothers me. Is it in fact god's work to kill another man or another being? Everyone in this country finds it absurd that the Muslim people who are claimed to have attacked us on 9/11 could have made such an attack based on religious pretense. Yet our president spends time in press conferences trying to make our battle alright through godly passages or by relating our work to that of historical Christian figures. When in fact, no matter how you slice it... killing is wrong! It's Christian and it's not good.
But yeah I'm spent now too much ranting and my eyes have gone cross-eyed plus I'm hungry.
More to come... PEACE
XXX
In my time since I last wrote in this thing I've basically been getting through life as best as I can.
Doing the whole two jobs thing sucks, but realizing how many people have to do it too sucks even more.
The state of our social and global economies is almost sickening to me. When I wake up everyday and see the drug dealers living across the street in this house that is falling down around them and realize that they are inside watching a big screen TV... it fucking tears me up. There are people who are killing themselves at jobs with high risks (i.e. the 12 of 13 miners who were just killed in WV in a mining disaster...the reason it is a disaster not an accident is because the mine was known to be unsafe and unsuited for workers and yet the company refused to implement safe working environment provisions or follow particular regulations that could have helped prevent this tragedy)and yet there are people who do nothing with their lives, who sell drugs, or who were born into money who are far from self-sufficient and who have no concept of what the average working class slob has to go through everyday, and who promote the social decay by encouraging ignorance, and by carelessly spending money that was either inherited or given to them via welfare. And it just fucking burns me up to know that there are people younger then me all the way to people my grandparents ages who are dying at multiple jobs just so that they can afford a place to live and so that they can afford basic cable.
Outside of working two jobs and being completely disgusted with social welfare in this country as well as in others, I've come to realize that blind faith isn't something for me. I guess that I never really felt that it was, but it's so ingrained in each of us since we're born to just blindly go to church, read your bible verses, memorize them, hold them close to your heart, and your faith will carry you through. But in these past few months I've realized that the bible alone is not enough for me... it's merely a book of stories, and like any other story there is some factitious base for it, but over all the bible is still just a collection of stories that were passed down through thousands of generations, from gentry to the beggars, from presidents to the needy so that the weak minds of the world could be suppressed by fleeting hope found in church sermons and written across pages of fables. And I've just come to realize that this life is ours, and if there is in fact a God above (which I do believe there is after having faced particular extenuating circumstances in my own life) who has given us free will, it is up to us to make our own paths in use of the free will given to us. There is nothing that I hate more when it comes to religious fanatics than those people who are so insecure with their own abilities as people left to live lives of their own design, that they spend all of their lives clinging to God's word and living completely sheltered and fearful lives and wind up miserable and empty, laying on their deathbeds alone still searching for some sort of happiness or peace in a world of "god's creation" that has left them unfulfilled. Enjoy your lives people! The reason you're so unfulfilled is because you never lived, you never took advantage of what your god has created for you. Instead people just sit back and let life happen around them. They get stuck living in this good Christian bubble, and they do nothing other than "god's work." Which this too bothers me. Is it in fact god's work to kill another man or another being? Everyone in this country finds it absurd that the Muslim people who are claimed to have attacked us on 9/11 could have made such an attack based on religious pretense. Yet our president spends time in press conferences trying to make our battle alright through godly passages or by relating our work to that of historical Christian figures. When in fact, no matter how you slice it... killing is wrong! It's Christian and it's not good.
But yeah I'm spent now too much ranting and my eyes have gone cross-eyed plus I'm hungry.
More to come... PEACE
XXX