Relationship issues
So yesterday I get two sms; one from an ex-classmate of mine, telling me she gave my number to a friend of her after she talked about me with her. The other from said friend, who seemed very interested from the start, even after seeing my photos...
She's a cute girl, and she seems nice too, and we're going to see each other this evening; there will be friends with her (and my ex-classmate) so it's sort of like a first time blind date but not quite the same.
The only problem is...she's lesbian.
And I'm FTM, pre-everything. I am a full-time "crossdresser", but I'm not out of the closet to everyone, so most people I know refer to me with female terms. She thinks I'm just a bisexual girl.
I mean, I'm totally cool with the fact that she's lesbian...but I fear she might have problems with my situation when she finds out.
I don't really want to come out to her just yet (experience taught me that it's best to do that when the other person gets to know you some more), but I just don't know what she might be expecting. I sure as hell ain't going to be a femme.
Also, I don't know if I'd be able to get physical in this body :( it's not even a good-looking female body, I'm really overweight and have stretch marks on my legs, and the fact alone that it's a female body is enough to make me feel uneasy thinking about being naked with someone.
More importantly...it's only my second relationship, and the first one was a long-distance one so I'm not really used to the whole dating thing, I'm afraid I'm going to do something stupid or that she won't like me after she sees me IRL even if the photos I sent her are recent.
I also don't know if I will like her after I get to know her better; you know, she's interesting me and I'm serious about her, but I can't already know if I'm going to feel something more for her since I barely know her.
Also, I'd like to do classic romantic stuff like bring her a flower (a purple rose) but since there are friends with her I'm afraid I might embarass her or something; also, I dunno if she's out with everyone (my ex-classmate knows she's lesbian, but I dunno about the others). Maybe I should do that on a second date (assuming there will be one).
She also seems to be poly; I'm not totally against it, but I sort of don't know how to deal with this, I don't know if this will be a concern in the future.
Help please? :(
(BTW, I'm 19 and she's 20.)
PS: Sorry for any grammar mistakes, this isn't my 1st language and I was typing kinda fast.
EDIT: Thanks to everyone who replied, but it didn't end up well.
She assumed I didn't like her just because I didn't text her this morning (mind that I slept for the whole morning and woke up at 12.00 a.m., it didn't seem proper to me to tell her "good morning" at lunch time XD) and told me she wants someone who's interested in her and not fooling her.
So she either A) is extremely paranoid, and I wouldn't want to date someone who's that insane mind you, I've already got my own sanity to worry about, or B) just wanted an excuse to refuse and make it seem like I was the one who blame, and I really despise coward and self-victimizing people who play dirty tricks like this, I don't even want to be friends with such persons.
So yeah, as for now I'm better off as a single.
She's a cute girl, and she seems nice too, and we're going to see each other this evening; there will be friends with her (and my ex-classmate) so it's sort of like a first time blind date but not quite the same.
The only problem is...she's lesbian.
And I'm FTM, pre-everything. I am a full-time "crossdresser", but I'm not out of the closet to everyone, so most people I know refer to me with female terms. She thinks I'm just a bisexual girl.
I mean, I'm totally cool with the fact that she's lesbian...but I fear she might have problems with my situation when she finds out.
I don't really want to come out to her just yet (experience taught me that it's best to do that when the other person gets to know you some more), but I just don't know what she might be expecting. I sure as hell ain't going to be a femme.
Also, I don't know if I'd be able to get physical in this body :( it's not even a good-looking female body, I'm really overweight and have stretch marks on my legs, and the fact alone that it's a female body is enough to make me feel uneasy thinking about being naked with someone.
More importantly...it's only my second relationship, and the first one was a long-distance one so I'm not really used to the whole dating thing, I'm afraid I'm going to do something stupid or that she won't like me after she sees me IRL even if the photos I sent her are recent.
I also don't know if I will like her after I get to know her better; you know, she's interesting me and I'm serious about her, but I can't already know if I'm going to feel something more for her since I barely know her.
Also, I'd like to do classic romantic stuff like bring her a flower (a purple rose) but since there are friends with her I'm afraid I might embarass her or something; also, I dunno if she's out with everyone (my ex-classmate knows she's lesbian, but I dunno about the others). Maybe I should do that on a second date (assuming there will be one).
She also seems to be poly; I'm not totally against it, but I sort of don't know how to deal with this, I don't know if this will be a concern in the future.
Help please? :(
(BTW, I'm 19 and she's 20.)
PS: Sorry for any grammar mistakes, this isn't my 1st language and I was typing kinda fast.
EDIT: Thanks to everyone who replied, but it didn't end up well.
She assumed I didn't like her just because I didn't text her this morning (mind that I slept for the whole morning and woke up at 12.00 a.m., it didn't seem proper to me to tell her "good morning" at lunch time XD) and told me she wants someone who's interested in her and not fooling her.
So she either A) is extremely paranoid, and I wouldn't want to date someone who's that insane mind you, I've already got my own sanity to worry about, or B) just wanted an excuse to refuse and make it seem like I was the one who blame, and I really despise coward and self-victimizing people who play dirty tricks like this, I don't even want to be friends with such persons.
So yeah, as for now I'm better off as a single.