dancing the tightrope of gender

[leilanimichelle]

i posted something in my own journal about this and i figure i would write about it here where people will actually comment on it and maybe i would feel less alone with it.

here is what i wrote...

sometimes i think my transgenderism is a curse...  actually most of the time i do.... but i dunno.  sometimes i can actually see it as a blessing.  i

Comments

[rebeccasf]

I can totally relate to what you're saying. Being transgendered has caused so many problems in my life that I'm just now starting to deal with and the whole thing often just pisses me off. I have great admiration for trans people who are able to embrace themselves and just move forward and deal with it

[d_for_dont_know]

let me first say i love that song and haven't thought about it in ages. thanks for posting it

[eriktrips]

i think the diseased/problematic one is society for deciding what's "acceptable" and what's not.I think you are quite on target with that. other cultures at various times have had a completely different take on those among them who wouldn't have fit the western anatomy-based and essentialist binary, and it seems that when 'differently gendered' people are accepted and integrated (and at times even honored for having a special gift) that the whole idea of disorder and disease falls by the wayside

[boidragon]

When I graduate in a year, I'm actually choosing not to walk because my birth name will be read. The college itself doesn't mean a lot to me either so whatever. My true friends are at other schools & they all know who I really am.

[morbioid]

It is a blessing, and it is special, but it is painful.

[sakuramoonlight]

I feel like I have a weird take on it all. I don't know if many other think like this. On some occasions, it is depressing and painfully sad, to understand that I am trans (mostly because of the things I've missed out on and the trials ahead), but most of the time I take it in stride. I have always been very adaptable, and always cling to whatever I have seen myself as or associated with.. when I realized I am trans, it was the same. I decided to do it and not look back, because it made ridiculous amounts of sense, and really was not an objectionable idea to me. I don't even mind identifying as trans. I'm a woman, for sure, but there's this whole body-defect-and-topsy-turvy-life thing that needs a name inside my mind. And I do consider it something of a blessing. I wouldn't understand people and society quite as well without the added perspective of being between genders.