Dear Universe....
I trust you. I also trust me.
Love,
Me.
Updateyness...
My contract with non profit ended unexpectedly today. Take one full time position, cram it into 15 hrs, add to it a decade of interestingly evolved processes. Combine well with wholehearted effort, uplifting purpose and culture, awesome communication and enjoyment of going to work. Find that alas desire and determination is not enough in this case, and it wasn't working for them.
I did good work and this is not a reflection on that. But non profits don't have the money to keep spending it on a contract that's not working for them. I sincerely wish them well in covering for M till she returns from her well deserved leave. I loved my time there, I love that I got to be part of such an awesome organisation even for a short while.
I am still a little sad, as I wanted something different - obviously. I wish that I could have been all that was needed, and it didn't happen that way.
I feel like there are blessings in the wings here though. I'm doing another shorter contract with another organisation (not non profit) doing some part time events coordination support. I am also really enjoying this, and walking in there today after my morning did much to restore my confidence. This other contract pays more than $5 per hour better than the non profit one, which given budgetyness is excellent. Having more time and flexibility with which to contribute to this contract is not unwelcome, in a making the best and looking forward perspective.
I'm learning a lot about what goes into putting together a professional conference, also what's involved in facilitating the attendance of international delegates - visa's and such. Very interesting.
Also, after my conversation with the Guild Rep last night, where I said "I can't responsibly take on being the Women's Rep at this stage. I will be an awesome support person. However, if I can get a job working 20 hrs ish on at least $20 per hour, that will line up enough ducks to make it possible." He's keeping an eye out, so I am hopeful on that front too. Something like this may mean I can actually study internally full time....
My other sadness was my parents leaving for interstate today and me not being able to see them before they go. I didn't expect to be upset, but I was and I miss Mum already. They'll be back West again when retired but for the moment it's move east or put off retirement plans.
I had a great brief conversation with e_dan - we so win at spontaneous catching up awesomeness! We went from dinner to The Ellington which was *awesome*. Brazillian and South American jazz... oh my heart be still! Lovely atmosphere, incredible company. Much to enjoy.
Caught train home and was walking home when a taxi driver offered to take me up the road and save me the 10 minute walk (I'd taken my shoes off, so perhaps he felt sorry for me). I thanked him for checking that I was okay, and he offered the lift, I said I that I didn't have the fare and he said that it was fine and he dropped me off near my regular bus stop. What a lovely thing to happen, so unexpected and incredibly appreciated at the time (my feet are owwies).
Tomorrow morning I will aim to get up early enough to go to the supermarket and buy some raw nuts and dried fruit and a pair of headphones (mine are nearly dead), and prehaps some fresh strawberries. Slightly later in the morning agoodliedown will pick me up and we will meander down to Margaret River for the weekend. I can't wait - and especially after today it will be welcome to relax and rejuvenate a little.
That said I have a *lot* of uni work to do. I may do the readings in the car on the way down - which means lugging text books, but makes for potential discussion (and thus learning). Also I don't otherwise see how I'll get it done before next week - which will mean falling behind and I really don't want that to happen - especially so early on in the first semester where I have three units rather than two to consider.
There's so much going on and I'm positive, if still a little sad in moments. Presently I'm concentrating on being my awesome self and trusting in the Universe and what me being myself makes possible really if I pay attention, work hard and ask for what I want. Anything is possible. I love and am loved.
Love,
Me.
Updateyness...
My contract with non profit ended unexpectedly today. Take one full time position, cram it into 15 hrs, add to it a decade of interestingly evolved processes. Combine well with wholehearted effort, uplifting purpose and culture, awesome communication and enjoyment of going to work. Find that alas desire and determination is not enough in this case, and it wasn't working for them.
I did good work and this is not a reflection on that. But non profits don't have the money to keep spending it on a contract that's not working for them. I sincerely wish them well in covering for M till she returns from her well deserved leave. I loved my time there, I love that I got to be part of such an awesome organisation even for a short while.
I am still a little sad, as I wanted something different - obviously. I wish that I could have been all that was needed, and it didn't happen that way.
I feel like there are blessings in the wings here though. I'm doing another shorter contract with another organisation (not non profit) doing some part time events coordination support. I am also really enjoying this, and walking in there today after my morning did much to restore my confidence. This other contract pays more than $5 per hour better than the non profit one, which given budgetyness is excellent. Having more time and flexibility with which to contribute to this contract is not unwelcome, in a making the best and looking forward perspective.
I'm learning a lot about what goes into putting together a professional conference, also what's involved in facilitating the attendance of international delegates - visa's and such. Very interesting.
Also, after my conversation with the Guild Rep last night, where I said "I can't responsibly take on being the Women's Rep at this stage. I will be an awesome support person. However, if I can get a job working 20 hrs ish on at least $20 per hour, that will line up enough ducks to make it possible." He's keeping an eye out, so I am hopeful on that front too. Something like this may mean I can actually study internally full time....
My other sadness was my parents leaving for interstate today and me not being able to see them before they go. I didn't expect to be upset, but I was and I miss Mum already. They'll be back West again when retired but for the moment it's move east or put off retirement plans.
I had a great brief conversation with e_dan - we so win at spontaneous catching up awesomeness! We went from dinner to The Ellington which was *awesome*. Brazillian and South American jazz... oh my heart be still! Lovely atmosphere, incredible company. Much to enjoy.
Caught train home and was walking home when a taxi driver offered to take me up the road and save me the 10 minute walk (I'd taken my shoes off, so perhaps he felt sorry for me). I thanked him for checking that I was okay, and he offered the lift, I said I that I didn't have the fare and he said that it was fine and he dropped me off near my regular bus stop. What a lovely thing to happen, so unexpected and incredibly appreciated at the time (my feet are owwies).
Tomorrow morning I will aim to get up early enough to go to the supermarket and buy some raw nuts and dried fruit and a pair of headphones (mine are nearly dead), and prehaps some fresh strawberries. Slightly later in the morning agoodliedown will pick me up and we will meander down to Margaret River for the weekend. I can't wait - and especially after today it will be welcome to relax and rejuvenate a little.
That said I have a *lot* of uni work to do. I may do the readings in the car on the way down - which means lugging text books, but makes for potential discussion (and thus learning). Also I don't otherwise see how I'll get it done before next week - which will mean falling behind and I really don't want that to happen - especially so early on in the first semester where I have three units rather than two to consider.
There's so much going on and I'm positive, if still a little sad in moments. Presently I'm concentrating on being my awesome self and trusting in the Universe and what me being myself makes possible really if I pay attention, work hard and ask for what I want. Anything is possible. I love and am loved.