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I feel safe blogging here.
I miss you guys, hehe. For some reason I want to detoxify myself from anything electronic. For some reason when I blog in multiply, I feel unreal, like it is not me. I feel I am posting for the sake of posting. My pictures and videos are real though. They are my captures of the people I am around with.
I am writing this blog because for the past few days, weeks, months... I have been questioned of who I really am and frankly I do not even know myself. It is a pain in the ass to just feel so alone in this world yet feel as if I am in the company of many people at the same time. I have been taking risks, I have been working myself hard, I have been tired, shit scared, I have been tested and all this... initially I could not go through them... but I did
I blog here because I have familiarity here. I miss a lot of things from the past. I should not. I should move on. I know.
I thought I changed a lot during the past few months but old habits die hard. There is still that sting whenever and wherever I go through a certain person's blog. That should not happen. It should go away. green eyes should not exist. They should be destroyed.
What I should change about myself:
1. Not be so damn sentimental
2. Not be so damn inconsiderate
3. Not be so damn paranoid
4. Not overthink
5. Not be so self-centered
6. Not be too damn pathetic
What my plans are:
FOR THE SCHOOL...
1. Be the best damn Managing Editor for The Bedan Herald by doing every damn thing for the publication that needs to be done, supervise the managers, prepare proposals and prepare projects.
2. Choreograph at least one song for The Bedanz Dance Troupe.
3. Raise awareness on the growing juvenile behavior
AT HOME...
1. Clean everything in sight if needs be
2. Talk to Tita and Tito
3. Do somthing about your room.
FOR MYSELF...
1. Quit seeking attention even if you don't mean it.
2. Quit overthinking
3. Love yourself then you can only love others
4. Look before you leap
5. Read, write
6. Show them that you are not nakakahiya like one person who texted it but did not know that that message was sent to me.
THERE
I miss you guys, hehe. For some reason I want to detoxify myself from anything electronic. For some reason when I blog in multiply, I feel unreal, like it is not me. I feel I am posting for the sake of posting. My pictures and videos are real though. They are my captures of the people I am around with.
I am writing this blog because for the past few days, weeks, months... I have been questioned of who I really am and frankly I do not even know myself. It is a pain in the ass to just feel so alone in this world yet feel as if I am in the company of many people at the same time. I have been taking risks, I have been working myself hard, I have been tired, shit scared, I have been tested and all this... initially I could not go through them... but I did
I blog here because I have familiarity here. I miss a lot of things from the past. I should not. I should move on. I know.
I thought I changed a lot during the past few months but old habits die hard. There is still that sting whenever and wherever I go through a certain person's blog. That should not happen. It should go away. green eyes should not exist. They should be destroyed.
What I should change about myself:
1. Not be so damn sentimental
2. Not be so damn inconsiderate
3. Not be so damn paranoid
4. Not overthink
5. Not be so self-centered
6. Not be too damn pathetic
What my plans are:
FOR THE SCHOOL...
1. Be the best damn Managing Editor for The Bedan Herald by doing every damn thing for the publication that needs to be done, supervise the managers, prepare proposals and prepare projects.
2. Choreograph at least one song for The Bedanz Dance Troupe.
3. Raise awareness on the growing juvenile behavior
AT HOME...
1. Clean everything in sight if needs be
2. Talk to Tita and Tito
3. Do somthing about your room.
FOR MYSELF...
1. Quit seeking attention even if you don't mean it.
2. Quit overthinking
3. Love yourself then you can only love others
4. Look before you leap
5. Read, write
6. Show them that you are not nakakahiya like one person who texted it but did not know that that message was sent to me.
THERE