.Drunken Butterflies.
Hello..Long time no talk. Anyway, Things have been just fine like usual, and I love Randy as always! He really is the sweetest guy in the whole world! I luff him. I am hearing war talk everywhere I go, and even more deployment talk..it seems that literally every army wife I know's husband is already deployed or is leaving in a couple days. That scares me..I really don't want to see Randy go. I mean yeah, it's not like I am with him everyday or even in the same state anyway, but the states are ALWAYS going to be safer than "out there"..It's a whole other world out there and my fears for him increase more and more everyday. I know it will be hell for me too, just not as much as it will be for him. It will feel like basic training all over again but even longer, but this time I know I can handle it and I know it will be hard, but I have control this time. I am just going to keep going on with my life like I am now, I will spend most of my days with my head buried deep in a book, Why would I want to associate with MORONS out there? I don't. I am content not leavving my house for weeks at a time besides school. Maybe hang out with Jaykob on good days...or bad. hehe. Anyway, I know I shouldn't be bitching because I have been extremely lucky that he hasn't been deployed thus far! Whatever happens though, it will be ok. On another note, I have been running and working out! Randy is ecstatic about it and proud of me, and I am proud of myself! Doin good. I am doing pretty well in school too for once, which is good. My mom's birthday is on Thursday so I have to go shopping tomorrow night. and on Thursday...March 8th..it was exactly one year ago that I officially fell in love..HARD. It was the absolute best day of my life! I am so excited for it to be back...and though we wont be together on that day (booo) We vowed to celebrate it when he comes home again next. We are thinking he is coming home on March 21st, for my spring break! But with the army lifestyle and a war about to break, nothing is for sure. I hope it does happen though, it could be just like last year, my spring break. The best times of my entire life. Oh, the b l i s s. I miss his touch, and even when we are on the phone, I miss his voice, his cute little voices make me giggle and smile even on the worst days, unsaid reassurance that everything is beautiful in it's own way, because we are in love. His voice makes me long to hold him, how I adore him so. I just want to squeeze and never let go. His words of love and adulation comfort me as his arms around me would, they set my heart a flutter and my brain whispers Love. This is love. :)