So what you must do - being an intelligent, thinking creature - is to make careful, well-informed judgement about how best you can spend your one and only half-second. You analyse yourself and your abilities; you match them with the world, its ways and possibilities, and you make a solemn decision to do what would most contribute to the well-being ( Read more... )

but i thought we were going to play?

on my days off i have this weird compulsion to stay home. this shouldn't be bad. in fact i revel in my quiet time at home, alone. with the choice of doing whatever i please, or not doing anything at all. this is the reason why i don't do very well with friendships - or whatever it is you call them - certain affinities with people who feel they have ( Read more... )

in the airport, during check-in on my way home, the ground stewardess asked me, "where is home?". i paused and gave her a perplexed look. i told her that i was "going home to the philippines" and as i did this, it was her turn to give me a puzzled look since at this instant, she was on my permanent resident visa page of my passport. she then leans ( Read more... )

i have nothing on my mind except that flight home - a quick trip to the beach, food and alcohol bingeing and quality time with the folks. i just wish i still had friends to come to - but i know that ain't the truth.

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i try to avoid reading other people's pages, blogs... every time i see pictures or read about stories of home, i realize that i'm moving further and further away from the old life i once lived. the worst part is i still haven't found which direction to take now that i'm here. it's been almost 2 years and i'm still wandering aimlessly. will i ever ( Read more... )

the most expensive green mango in the world and bagoong made my day today. truly. i've never been this content in a long, long time.

i haven't been thinking about the life i left behind for months. guess the meds have been working. but now that i'm completely off it, i can't help but remember things. can't stop thinking about things. things like the masters i left behind and how i'd never finish it. don't even get me started about the academic career i was getting started on - ( Read more... )

dear t,
it was fantastic last night, too bad it ended abruptly. you were everything i thought you would be.
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p.s.
i wish i hadn't woken up.
:(