Today. ...
Well, I can honestly say today has been somewhat better than it has been. Still in this funky mood and trying to stay strong and positive. It just really sucks when you love someone so much and they just push you away and have been not so nice. I have felt like im in a confined room with just myself for a week and it has given me a lot of time to reflect and Try to understand my way of thinking better. I honestly think that i need to find myself again before any kind of relationship whether or be with brad or anyone. I need to love myself first and fix my insane trust issues. It just really sucks cause if things do work out with brad and i, i know my family is going to give me a tough time, but jesus christ. ...im 28 years old. I say it's about time to do what i think makes me happy, whether or not...it pisses someone off or not. I will be strong, and I will make my OWN decisions.