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ok, so this will be kind of quick. i'm between classes and just needed to vent. i've realized something very negative about myself. i've been told about this before, but id on't know for some reason this time it is just different. i'm not going to go into too much detail about the whole thing because it's personal, ya know. plus you guys are all pervs. anyways. i just had this realization this afternoon, and it some ways it really sucked, because of course nobody likes to admit their faults. but more over i'm glad i realized it. it had started to become rather detremental to a very very important person in my life. it breaks my heart to know the way i acted. i'm still kind of upset because i don't know. i guess i'm just a little dissappointed in myself. i always prided myself in being the opposite of what i've been becoming the past few days. ok, enough of that. so of course i miss erin brittany a lot. i've been without her for two weeks now, and it has been tough. i'm trying to keep a good positive attitude, and i know i've hit a couple pot holes along the road, but i really think i will be better from now on. i plan on spending the rest of my life with her. i've honestly never had this feeling. i've loved girls, but this is more than love. this is the feeling when you know you've found the one you want to spend of the rest of your life with. everytime she speaks she speaks straight to my heart. i'm getting a little teary eyed right now thinking about how much she means to me. she's coming home the begiing of october, and i absolutely cannot wait! it will be better than the feeling you get on christmas morning. she's the best present i could ever recieve! i only wish i could be with her now. IUP really sucks. i really haven't met anyone of too much of an interest. i also think i holod things in too much. i need to find a better way to get things out. i need to get on a more steady running routine. in closing i cannot wait for october.