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So here's a surprise.
Last year at this precise moment I was sitting in my room trying to slit my wrists.
Big change.
In a year.
Lots of stuff is going on.
So of course I will categorize into well...categories my update.
Chris:
After much chopping and changing between hate and love, at least on my side, after I started my pills I decided, okay, I'll make him hate me.
I have been so nasty I wonder sometimes how I sleep, and then it comes back to me....Sleeping Pills ;)
Aaah.
So yes that's part one.
Depression:
Mostly the result of a genetic chemical imbalance, which is being corrected by "happy pills" as I fondly
call them.
So I am all in all a much happier person now...IT's kinda creepy sometimes...But I know now what it's like
to be okay every day for more than a week.
After all that's happened, I feel like I deserve it.
I don't want to stay this way though.
Dunno why...
Rant:
Oh!!
Like a total poseur punk bitch I'mma go watch Avril Lavigne live on the eighth.
Go moi.
I've been through a hell of a lot in the past months
Nothing as bad as my mom dying but, I've been through 23 pretty fucking traumatic things in
the past five months.
Retrospection is the best way to see things.
Let me tell you.
=D
xxxxxxxoxoxoxox
Kisses and hugs for all.
-Megz
Last year at this precise moment I was sitting in my room trying to slit my wrists.
Big change.
In a year.
Lots of stuff is going on.
So of course I will categorize into well...categories my update.
Chris:
After much chopping and changing between hate and love, at least on my side, after I started my pills I decided, okay, I'll make him hate me.
I have been so nasty I wonder sometimes how I sleep, and then it comes back to me....Sleeping Pills ;)
Aaah.
So yes that's part one.
Depression:
Mostly the result of a genetic chemical imbalance, which is being corrected by "happy pills" as I fondly
call them.
So I am all in all a much happier person now...IT's kinda creepy sometimes...But I know now what it's like
to be okay every day for more than a week.
After all that's happened, I feel like I deserve it.
I don't want to stay this way though.
Dunno why...
Rant:
Oh!!
Like a total poseur punk bitch I'mma go watch Avril Lavigne live on the eighth.
Go moi.
I've been through a hell of a lot in the past months
Nothing as bad as my mom dying but, I've been through 23 pretty fucking traumatic things in
the past five months.
Retrospection is the best way to see things.
Let me tell you.
=D
xxxxxxxoxoxoxox
Kisses and hugs for all.
-Megz