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i can never sleep anymore. my thoughts get tangled in my bed sheets with my legs and i am left feeling restless and bored. the night ends too soon and the mornings are too lonely. i am lonesome, but not in a conventional way. i feel like i'm communicating through superficial means and that's the last thing i want. what am i doing with my life? am i really that afraid of being alone my senior year that i'm skipping stones over kiddy pools instead of wading in the ocean? is this what high school's all about? you know, i'm happy. i really am. but i'm discontent. i'm ready to roll. if i could find something, someone to believe in, maybe i wouldn't waste away the days with myspace comments and hard liquor. but nothing's there. now don't get me wrong, i am not depressed or even sad, but i just feel like there's something i'm missing out on. something i'm not giving myself.
how do you exit a cycle you've been travelling in for so long? how do you gather the courage? how do you know which foot is your best one? and when the time comes, will you be able to put it forward? i am uncertain. i am bored. i am ready. are you?
goodnight.
how do you exit a cycle you've been travelling in for so long? how do you gather the courage? how do you know which foot is your best one? and when the time comes, will you be able to put it forward? i am uncertain. i am bored. i am ready. are you?
goodnight.