[IC (Ceirin)]
Well, I guess it's out now, isn't it? Glad I at least don't have to worry about keeping it from the rest of the unit...so here's hoping keeping it from my family works. Probably telling father ahead of time just in case, but I dunno if he'll be up for traveling...he doesn't tend to like this kind of event anyway. I'm not gonna expect him to come, same as he never expects me to show up in the city anytime besides whenever the hell I feel like it.
The rest of 'em aren't finding out until after I get married. Mother would try to take over the whole thing and try to make it some fancy affair in Silvermoon, and the boys would probably tell her if they knew.
Cookout was definitely...interesting. Helped throw a really cranky troll in the pond, drank a little (or a lot) too much, just hung around relaxing, saw Elendra again- apparently Rid and Jeria are adopting her. Good. The kid's too damn bright to not get a better chance at things, she's so young and already taking things apart, before long she'll be putting 'em back together too. I wonder how many heart attacks she's gonna give poor Jeria trying to make explosives and more dangerous machines later on...and she really isn't bad, for a little kid. I just- I can't take myself out of work for a whole year carrying one and then take more time out to start raising it, not to mention I've really got no damn business trying to care for one that...tiny and fragile oh fuck I'd screw up so badly I know it.
But there's not as many of us as there used to be, especially not children. Which is more important, making sure there's more elves or working against the things that are trying to kill those of us that're here now? I'd say it's the second one but I know some are sure to disagree on that, and mother's gonna be so upset if she dies without grandchildren or any hope of them and so far it looks like I'm the only shot she has...
I don't wanna be pressured into shit like that that I don't want to do. Doing it 'cause somebody else wanted me to isn't a good enough reason, if I ever do end up with any it's damn well going to be because I wanted them. I just hope he's as okay with the idea of never having any as he says he is...anyone who says I'm "shirking my duty to the sin'dorei" can go fuck themselves but I do care about disappointing him.
Oh Light what am I getting myself into? ...more importantly why am I even worried about this NOW? We aren't married yet, we don't even exactly know when we will be, I'm not even going to live with him all the time and- ugh. I need to find something to do besides think. I'm gonna go out for a while.
The rest of 'em aren't finding out until after I get married. Mother would try to take over the whole thing and try to make it some fancy affair in Silvermoon, and the boys would probably tell her if they knew.
Cookout was definitely...interesting. Helped throw a really cranky troll in the pond, drank a little (or a lot) too much, just hung around relaxing, saw Elendra again- apparently Rid and Jeria are adopting her. Good. The kid's too damn bright to not get a better chance at things, she's so young and already taking things apart, before long she'll be putting 'em back together too. I wonder how many heart attacks she's gonna give poor Jeria trying to make explosives and more dangerous machines later on...and she really isn't bad, for a little kid. I just- I can't take myself out of work for a whole year carrying one and then take more time out to start raising it, not to mention I've really got no damn business trying to care for one that...tiny and fragile oh fuck I'd screw up so badly I know it.
But there's not as many of us as there used to be, especially not children. Which is more important, making sure there's more elves or working against the things that are trying to kill those of us that're here now? I'd say it's the second one but I know some are sure to disagree on that, and mother's gonna be so upset if she dies without grandchildren or any hope of them and so far it looks like I'm the only shot she has...
I don't wanna be pressured into shit like that that I don't want to do. Doing it 'cause somebody else wanted me to isn't a good enough reason, if I ever do end up with any it's damn well going to be because I wanted them. I just hope he's as okay with the idea of never having any as he says he is...anyone who says I'm "shirking my duty to the sin'dorei" can go fuck themselves but I do care about disappointing him.
Oh Light what am I getting myself into? ...more importantly why am I even worried about this NOW? We aren't married yet, we don't even exactly know when we will be, I'm not even going to live with him all the time and- ugh. I need to find something to do besides think. I'm gonna go out for a while.