cross your fingers and pray for winter

[tracing_circles]

I thought I was going to be happy, I really did. I know I should be but I'm just not. This all sounds so self-centered but the truth is, as much as I want to be happy ... I'm not. And that's not the kind of place I want to be in my life. Not with someone else because, as happy as I make the other person ... if I'm faking my way through it, it's not

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[bellamela]

If you're an asshole, then you can't be a bigger one than me. I went through the same. exact. thing. Just about a month or two ago. You can't help how you feel, and you can't force yourself to feel something that isn't quite there.

It's a really shitty position to be in. I wouldn't wish it on anyone, and I'm sorry you're having to go through it.