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Urgh. I'm in a shit mood. I feel like I'm banging my head against a brick wall everyday. Uni sucks. I really hate it. I don't want to be here, I've had enough of learning stuff, it's driving me insane. I have so little motivation and concentration. I have 2 exams left this week. One of them I need 18% and is laughable. The other I need a decent mark, and I haven't got a clue what is going on.
I have no reason other than gigs to be in London. It sucks and is so lonely. I have one real friend here, and she's never really about.
I miss Lellie so much. I just want to be with her all the time. She's so wonderful, we're so close, as friends as well as other ways. I can't imagine myself being with anyone else.
I'm very tempted to get this year over with, then take a year out. Live at home. Do some work, get some money. Then come back to London the year after when Lellie starts uni, and hopefully persuade her to come here and live with me. That would be so perfect.
I dunno. I'm so worried about everything. I'll pass this year, not sure how well, but it should be easy enough to pass.
I don't want to be here any longer than that. I hate the place. I'm so far away from everyone I love.
I'm so confused. If I carry on here then get a job, I'll be able to do whatever the hell i like. I'll be so loaded. I'll prolly be earning more than my parents put together and they're by no means poor. I'll have no dependants. I'll just have me and lots of money and lots of fun.
I dunno, I started posting this an hour ago, listening to guns n roses, now i'm listening to fosca.
I'm feeling alot more calm now.
I just want to curl up and sleep.
I have no reason other than gigs to be in London. It sucks and is so lonely. I have one real friend here, and she's never really about.
I miss Lellie so much. I just want to be with her all the time. She's so wonderful, we're so close, as friends as well as other ways. I can't imagine myself being with anyone else.
I'm very tempted to get this year over with, then take a year out. Live at home. Do some work, get some money. Then come back to London the year after when Lellie starts uni, and hopefully persuade her to come here and live with me. That would be so perfect.
I dunno. I'm so worried about everything. I'll pass this year, not sure how well, but it should be easy enough to pass.
I don't want to be here any longer than that. I hate the place. I'm so far away from everyone I love.
I'm so confused. If I carry on here then get a job, I'll be able to do whatever the hell i like. I'll be so loaded. I'll prolly be earning more than my parents put together and they're by no means poor. I'll have no dependants. I'll just have me and lots of money and lots of fun.
I dunno, I started posting this an hour ago, listening to guns n roses, now i'm listening to fosca.
I'm feeling alot more calm now.
I just want to curl up and sleep.