Catharsis
Breakfast prepared by Emmy, sitting down eating my last meal at C4, surrounded by two really great people i've met over the past few months and a British guy I met the previous night. It hadn't hit me then, I was still a little hungover from the last night of partying at Herkules, where the 6 of us had gone out to celebrate my last night in Lund. Where I had one last corridor party, and one last talk with Niklas. Grabbed the luggage I hadn't weighed (which Niklas carried down the 4 floors for me) and my trusty haversack, Niklas and I headed to the bus stop. Sat on the ground leaning against the wall in the sun while we waited for my bus. The bus came and I hugged Niklas goodbye, sat there with my luggage and backpack, all sleepy from waking so early. Finally for the last time at Lund Central, hopped on the train and fell asleep for a good 10 minutes before i had to shift and sit in the most uncomfortable position to accommodate the packed train. Upon reaching Copenhagen airport, that's when it hit me, a gush of pain and sadness overwhelmed me and i attempted to control the tears as I trudged unwillingly to check in my luggage. The baggage counter had a man checking in 10 luggages and as I waited (for a good 10-15minutes), all these thoughts were running through my mind and I was in simple disbelief, that this whole journey had come to an end. All these emotions and experiences and people I've encountered. Would I ever be able to feel this way again? Would I be able to ever meet these special people ever again? Thankfully my unweighed luggage surmounted to a healthy weight of 30.1kg (can't say the same for myself) and with that worry off my shoulders, it was finally time to leave. My flight was delayed by an hour, but the lovely Australian couple next to me (which regretfully, I didn't have the chance of saying bye to), kept conversing with me, distracting me from my very depressive thoughts. Caught an amazing sunset on the plane where the horizon was lined with a golden glow. Watched some movies and drank some alcohol. Eventually landed back home. The disbelief this time was even greater, was I really home?! After 7 months?!
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Seeking catharsis by documenting my feelings. hopefully this immense sadness which has been clouding my senses will slowly transform into the happiness of having the opportunity of actually getting to experience something so magical.
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