thought you'd want the same for me.
i don't think there is much of anything i can say about my life more than what i wrote to my mother in a 4 page e-mail today about everything going on. it came after reading the fourth jessica darling book, fourth comings. there is supposedly a fifth book that could tie everything up and make it a happy ending after all, but in this book [[spoiler alert]] the girl truly walks away from the boy that she loves instead of marrying him. she just feels that's what she needs. that she needs to totally let go for awhile. and he accepts it. and that's it. he signs it his note, "whatever, marcus." which seems harsh when not in context, but really isn't. i'm amazed at how pissed off i was by an ending that was not favoring a relationship. i was hoping, in fact, that it would NOT be this kind of book when it started. but it was. and it PISSED me off for like five minutes after reading it. long enough before i went, well crap, there's a HUGE lesson to be learned here. and then i wrote a note in response to something ally sent me on facebook, in which i ended up saying everything i realized i wanted my mom to read. so then i turned i wrote a very long e-mail to my mother. synopsis: i'm nineteen. i have a lot to learn from life. i don't need to have it all figured out right now. but i do need to go my own way and do this on my own right now.
<3 melissa
<3 melissa