omg, ok first of all... i remember hearing that you were upset with me because when you mentioned that you had the note and i said how sweet it was... i really wasnt being bitchy. I seriously had forgotten that she had said those things about you and laura. I was referring to how she called me her best friend and told me how much i meant to her. I sware I never even thought of the bad things she said about you two, or I would have apoligized that you had to read that. Once again, just because I had the note doesnt mean that I agreed with the things mona said. I actually remember being annoyed that mona made it sound like "good for you" that I was getting married right out of high school. I wasnt proud of myself for that. Even I thought it was crazy. I really was kinda blinded by how in love i was. In my opinion, it wasnt so much that I had changed because of chon, it was just that all my goals did. And I was a bit obsessive at first, but I was excited that I found some one that I love so much. I realize now that it was crazy to talk about marriage quite so soon, and we've put it off. And instead of just settling on going to Hill in cleburne, Im planning a couple years there to get on my feet... and then Baylor. Just like it's always been.
Im sorry if I seemed kind of distant, but I sware Im better now. I miss hanging out with you, and I know it will never be like it used to be because of all that happened. It was just killing me that you had so much anger and bitterness toward me and we never talked it out. I never meant to push you away like I did. I realize now that he was all I talked about but im over it. I still love him, but im just comfortable with it now, and I promise he doesnt dominate every conversation.
I miss hanging out with you, and hearing stories about Dylan, and talking about clothes. I hate to think how you dont want to be around me, or how you could care less if youre ever my friend again. I really have been completely wrong, thank you for making me see that.
Once again, just because I had the note doesnt mean that I agreed with the things mona said. I actually remember being annoyed that mona made it sound like "good for you" that I was getting married right out of high school. I wasnt proud of myself for that. Even I thought it was crazy. I really was kinda blinded by how in love i was.
In my opinion, it wasnt so much that I had changed because of chon, it was just that all my goals did. And I was a bit obsessive at first, but I was excited that I found some one that I love so much. I realize now that it was crazy to talk about marriage quite so soon, and we've put it off. And instead of just settling on going to Hill in cleburne, Im planning a couple years there to get on my feet... and then Baylor. Just like it's always been.
Im sorry if I seemed kind of distant, but I sware Im better now. I miss hanging out with you, and I know it will never be like it used to be because of all that happened.
It was just killing me that you had so much anger and bitterness toward me and we never talked it out. I never meant to push you away like I did. I realize now that he was all I talked about but im over it. I still love him, but im just comfortable with it now, and I promise he doesnt dominate every conversation.
I miss hanging out with you, and hearing stories about Dylan, and talking about clothes. I hate to think how you dont want to be around me, or how you could care less if youre ever my friend again. I really have been completely wrong, thank you for making me see that.
I love you, Heather
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and it's ok
i should have talked to you about things
but as you def. know, i'm bad with confrontations
love you too
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*smile*
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*smile* <------------ that reminded me of weezer boards :)
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