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i dont know why, but i felt like updating.
its been a while.
im so unhappy lately. its been a while since ive been sad like this.
I m really needing something to boost my spirits.
ooohhh like garner. Garner makes me so happy.
apparently, everyone hates me because im a horrible person.
Kinda sad.
two months until graduation and i sware, it CANNOT get here soon enough.
All i have in this world is chon and laura, which both make up 50 percent of my life. I love them, and without them, i dont know what i would do.
sure, ihave other friends, but they are either far, far away or too caught up in their own lives to care.
its incredible how in love with that boy I am. If he ever breaks my heart, I dont know what i'll do. I would be so lost and empty. OMG.
And i love juan and mano and melanie like family. I think that even if it is against their will, they ARE my family. I dont know what i would do without them.
jesus, im whining like dani (no offense dani).
so, no job...
and im supposed to move to cleburne in june(ish).
i spend everyday lying about some game or UIL meet to get to see chon for a couple hours.
im in a rut.
meanwhile, ive completely stopped caring about everything.
i dropped every extra cirricular activity because none of them seem to matter enough.
Yearbook's all i got and it seems to take up every second of my school day. except english, which is TRULY all that seems to matter.
blah
I went to see my mom with chon and laura and josh.
she looks awful.
once a drug addict, always a drug addict.
wait... i guess there are exceptions. whatever.
on the other hand, my brother is so gorgeous.
seriously, like body-builder gorgeous.
He turned out so perfectly. Handsome as can be, great job, fun-loving attitude. good for him. I've never been more proud to call myself his sister. He promised to come up for my graduation. yay.
We're staying in touch. which is exciting. we both promised to not ever be out of each other's lives for that long ever again. He gives me something to smile about.
meanwile,my future is being mapped out before my eyes.
Im thinking a wedding next may. quiet and small, hopefully.
College, two years at hill, and then, hopefully, baylor.
kids when im say.... 24, which means in 10 years, i'll have a kid in kindergarten. Which, to be honest, freaks me out.
But im so ready to have a life like that.
ANd then hopefully some life in advertising/graphic design.
we'll see how hard it is to pull a double major at baylor first.
my future. my future makes me smile as well.
I guess thats all i have to say. St.Patrick's green beer party in Euless tommorow. Not as excited as i would have been, say, a year ago.
I dont drink much at all anymore.
I dont do much of anything anymore.
school. cleburne. home. Lather rinse repeat.
I love you guys so much!
All of you.. even the ones that hate me.
:( <3 HeatherAnn
its been a while.
im so unhappy lately. its been a while since ive been sad like this.
I m really needing something to boost my spirits.
ooohhh like garner. Garner makes me so happy.
apparently, everyone hates me because im a horrible person.
Kinda sad.
two months until graduation and i sware, it CANNOT get here soon enough.
All i have in this world is chon and laura, which both make up 50 percent of my life. I love them, and without them, i dont know what i would do.
sure, ihave other friends, but they are either far, far away or too caught up in their own lives to care.
its incredible how in love with that boy I am. If he ever breaks my heart, I dont know what i'll do. I would be so lost and empty. OMG.
And i love juan and mano and melanie like family. I think that even if it is against their will, they ARE my family. I dont know what i would do without them.
jesus, im whining like dani (no offense dani).
so, no job...
and im supposed to move to cleburne in june(ish).
i spend everyday lying about some game or UIL meet to get to see chon for a couple hours.
im in a rut.
meanwhile, ive completely stopped caring about everything.
i dropped every extra cirricular activity because none of them seem to matter enough.
Yearbook's all i got and it seems to take up every second of my school day. except english, which is TRULY all that seems to matter.
blah
I went to see my mom with chon and laura and josh.
she looks awful.
once a drug addict, always a drug addict.
wait... i guess there are exceptions. whatever.
on the other hand, my brother is so gorgeous.
seriously, like body-builder gorgeous.
He turned out so perfectly. Handsome as can be, great job, fun-loving attitude. good for him. I've never been more proud to call myself his sister. He promised to come up for my graduation. yay.
We're staying in touch. which is exciting. we both promised to not ever be out of each other's lives for that long ever again. He gives me something to smile about.
meanwile,my future is being mapped out before my eyes.
Im thinking a wedding next may. quiet and small, hopefully.
College, two years at hill, and then, hopefully, baylor.
kids when im say.... 24, which means in 10 years, i'll have a kid in kindergarten. Which, to be honest, freaks me out.
But im so ready to have a life like that.
ANd then hopefully some life in advertising/graphic design.
we'll see how hard it is to pull a double major at baylor first.
my future. my future makes me smile as well.
I guess thats all i have to say. St.Patrick's green beer party in Euless tommorow. Not as excited as i would have been, say, a year ago.
I dont drink much at all anymore.
I dont do much of anything anymore.
school. cleburne. home. Lather rinse repeat.
I love you guys so much!
All of you.. even the ones that hate me.
:( <3 HeatherAnn