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I am a tool. I get it now. I am a convinent way for others to get to what they want. They don't care about my feelings. I am nothing to them. That is why they don't get sick of me, and why they like to have me around. I want to be numb. I don't want to cry. I want to tell both parties to fuck off, but for some reason I can bring myself to do it. I don't know if I am even a friend or what I am. Right now I just feel like a tool. I was that before and I had hoped that I wouldn't be that again. But I am always the unlucky one. Guys like my friends and never me.
I am going to go crawl into a hole and die now....
I am going to go crawl into a hole and die now....