Why?
Is this payback for snapping at my sister all the time or for not forgiving my dad and brother? Is this just a cruel fucking game to you?!
IS THIS FUNNY TO YOU?! HUH?! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU DAMNIT!!
I'm sick of death. I'm sick of it damnit. I don't care how small it is or how large it is but damnit I've had enough. The last 9 months I've had so many deaths and I can't handle any more.
I don't care who the fuck you are, where you were going, or what you were doing. If you're going to run over someone's baby kitten with your car, at least have the decency to get out and take him off the road. My street is empty at night, you son of a bitch.
Someone killed my baby. They killed my BABY. So help me your God, you better hope I don't find out who you are. Lily's missing too. If she's dead I don't what I'll do...
Spook
March 2007 - July 12th/13th, 2007
Rest In Peace
Anyone who cares - I have an appointment at 4 in Coon Rapids for work. That should be done by 5:15, and I'll hit rush hour on the way home. Expect me around 6:30. And I have a $142.00 paycheck coming to me. Finally. $42 of which will go to gas because last I checked it was about $3.37/gallon. In Rogers and Elk River. I'm checking in Coon Rapids tomorrow. Usually it's cheapest in either St. Paul/Minneapolis or Anoka/Ramsey.
My birthday is on Wednesday - I'll be 19, whoo. I have an 8 AM demo on my birthday (maybe I can use that to my advantage) and a team meeting at 5:30. Since my managers know it's my birthday Wednesday we'll probably go out after work. Thursday night will be the annual family dinner at Applebee's. The demo derby at the Sherburne County Fair is the 21st I think. Depending on how hot it is (and whether or not Kate's back from D.C.) I may go. Still working on what to do for my birthday with friends. I'd like to see Transformers and/or go bowling at the Brunswick Zone in Brooklyn Park on next Friday night (it's $0.79/game after 9:30) or something like that.
If anyone wants my address, let me know. Or my cell phone number. I get free long distance after 7 PM I think and if you're a Sprint customer, it's free and it doesn't eat my minutes. Or you can text me. Not like I use my phone for anything other than business and calling my mom, anyway. (Amarah and Sarah, you guys already have my number. Well, Amarah you do for sure. My texting logs will confirm that. Liz I never got your number.)
Mel - Are you going to Emma's on Saturday for movie night? If so, call my cell. Hell, just call me if you want.
1.5 weeks til SCII in Chicago. 80% chance I'm going. I miss you, Liz.
Is it possible to go through Denial, Anger, Bargaining, and Depression all at once? Acceptance? Fuck you. You have to wait.
I'm gonna go back to mourning my baby now.
Maybe this will help me write fic.
ETA (10:45 PM): 2 chapters of my newest fic Trial By Fire up at shadows_in_fire.
The Devil's Whisper
The Hanged Man
[I’m feeling|
Going through stages 1-4 of grief all at once ]
[Current Addiction:| The X-Files ]
IS THIS FUNNY TO YOU?! HUH?! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU DAMNIT!!
I'm sick of death. I'm sick of it damnit. I don't care how small it is or how large it is but damnit I've had enough. The last 9 months I've had so many deaths and I can't handle any more.
I don't care who the fuck you are, where you were going, or what you were doing. If you're going to run over someone's baby kitten with your car, at least have the decency to get out and take him off the road. My street is empty at night, you son of a bitch.
Someone killed my baby. They killed my BABY. So help me your God, you better hope I don't find out who you are. Lily's missing too. If she's dead I don't what I'll do...
Spook
March 2007 - July 12th/13th, 2007
Rest In Peace
Anyone who cares - I have an appointment at 4 in Coon Rapids for work. That should be done by 5:15, and I'll hit rush hour on the way home. Expect me around 6:30. And I have a $142.00 paycheck coming to me. Finally. $42 of which will go to gas because last I checked it was about $3.37/gallon. In Rogers and Elk River. I'm checking in Coon Rapids tomorrow. Usually it's cheapest in either St. Paul/Minneapolis or Anoka/Ramsey.
My birthday is on Wednesday - I'll be 19, whoo. I have an 8 AM demo on my birthday (maybe I can use that to my advantage) and a team meeting at 5:30. Since my managers know it's my birthday Wednesday we'll probably go out after work. Thursday night will be the annual family dinner at Applebee's. The demo derby at the Sherburne County Fair is the 21st I think. Depending on how hot it is (and whether or not Kate's back from D.C.) I may go. Still working on what to do for my birthday with friends. I'd like to see Transformers and/or go bowling at the Brunswick Zone in Brooklyn Park on next Friday night (it's $0.79/game after 9:30) or something like that.
If anyone wants my address, let me know. Or my cell phone number. I get free long distance after 7 PM I think and if you're a Sprint customer, it's free and it doesn't eat my minutes. Or you can text me. Not like I use my phone for anything other than business and calling my mom, anyway. (Amarah and Sarah, you guys already have my number. Well, Amarah you do for sure. My texting logs will confirm that. Liz I never got your number.)
Mel - Are you going to Emma's on Saturday for movie night? If so, call my cell. Hell, just call me if you want.
1.5 weeks til SCII in Chicago. 80% chance I'm going. I miss you, Liz.
Is it possible to go through Denial, Anger, Bargaining, and Depression all at once? Acceptance? Fuck you. You have to wait.
I'm gonna go back to mourning my baby now.
Maybe this will help me write fic.
ETA (10:45 PM): 2 chapters of my newest fic Trial By Fire up at shadows_in_fire.
The Devil's Whisper
The Hanged Man
[I’m feeling|
Going through stages 1-4 of grief all at once ]
[Current Addiction:| The X-Files ]