kiss my butt
what the f-u-c-k has been wrong with me these past weeks? I seriously don't feel human sometimes. I manipulate to get what I want, and then once I have it I don't want it, so I manipulate it again to get rid of it, and then I want it back and so on. This happens to me...all the time. My dad tells me I just need to pick something and stick with it. I don't know if I can do that. I don't know if I WANT to do that. I've now had 4 people from my dorm tell me I've been really quiet lately, if you know me you know that's not one of my dominant characteristics. I'm super cynical, but not depressed, maybe numb? I don't know. I'm gliding. I feel acutely aware of my thoughts, but really disconnected also. w-t-f. But the weird thing is, I kinda like all of this. hmm.