This journal is bullshit, and everything in it is one big lie.
Except this.

Sometimes a great opportunity comes along, but before you know it..... it's gone.

Please don't leave.

It's really hard to keep things in perspective right now.
I want to walk slower, to bask in a good moment a little bit longer, and to live each day as fully as possible, all for you.
I don't know what I can do.

I'm sad because I'm moving out tomorrow.  As much as I enjoy change I'm never quite ready for it.

oh Berkeley....

The more tests I fail,
The more frustrated I become,
The more utterly incompetent, unintelligent, and useless you make me feel,
The more I love you.
What kind of sick relationship is this??

FREEDOM AT 11AM TOMORROW (temporarily)

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I will not collapse.  I will stand strong, the way I was built, live through this, and learn.

...and I'll hit my drum even harder.

I don't think I've ever been this stressed out before. I feel like I'm having a super drawn-out panic attack. I think I'd just rather have a really intense one all at once. Then it would just be over. Don't ask me how school is going, I'm tired of talking about it. Don't tell me I shouldn't be stressed out, I don't give a fuck. Don't say you ( Read more... )

I spend a lot of time and energy trying to analyze things - constantly asking myself why and how - I'm sure you do too. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in these questions that they turn into "problems," and something as simple and good as joy or peace can feel much more unpleasantly complicated. It's refreshing when this thought pattern shuts off, it ( Read more... )

Today was a good day. I made really tasty fried rice for breakfast. Then I broke lent, but I had a good reason. At taiko I found out that I'm playing a drum at thursday's performance! That's so exciting... my first real performance and it's for my favorite piece. Then one of my friends asked me to date night at his frat, which just gave me a little ( Read more... )