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I have something to say
I wont admit it to my family
I wont admit it to my friends
but I need to say it to someone
so here it is
On Friday the 16th of Febuary 2007
I attempted suicide
turns out a bottle of Vodka, an entire perscription of vallium
and a 300mg of cocain doesn't really get you as dead as I hoped
neither does slicing down your veins.
unfortunately
Now not only am I alive but I'm hospitalised
I cant drink, I cant smoke, I cant play my guitar
I'm not even allowed to go outside
my mother believes that I am looking for attention
and that the enire "episode" was just a performance
I despise the woman
I have for years
she'd do anything to be rid of me
why wont anyone just let me die
I wont admit it to my family
I wont admit it to my friends
but I need to say it to someone
so here it is
On Friday the 16th of Febuary 2007
I attempted suicide
turns out a bottle of Vodka, an entire perscription of vallium
and a 300mg of cocain doesn't really get you as dead as I hoped
neither does slicing down your veins.
unfortunately
Now not only am I alive but I'm hospitalised
I cant drink, I cant smoke, I cant play my guitar
I'm not even allowed to go outside
my mother believes that I am looking for attention
and that the enire "episode" was just a performance
I despise the woman
I have for years
she'd do anything to be rid of me
why wont anyone just let me die