It was you that turned your back on them
Todays a depressing day. honestly, nothing has been going right, except last night. last night was perfect. Nothing went wrong, nothing at all and I enjoyed that. All last week was fucked up and I was about to let go of everything, and hanging out with Chris eric and ashley last night showed me diffrent. Honestly, when he walked in the room, I wanted to cry because I did nothing. Nothing. My nerves have been intense and my stress level.. wah haha thats been up there! I felt like I was going to black out, that wouldnt of been good, but I wanted to. I just wanted to forget about all of this and everything. This is one situation that deffinetly pushed me to want to drink and just fucking lose control of myself and let go of you, him, everything. I can't do that though, thats not me, I'm better than that and I know that. I got my bestfriend and my good friend to be happy and that makes me really happy =) but then kind of depresses me because I can make my friends happy, but people always get in the way of my relationships.Why cant people be okay when other people are happy and just stop trying to change the rotation of the world and love. Fuck you, fuck this, fuck everything.
Done.